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YEONMI PARK | A North Korean Defector’s Search for Freedom in America (Ep. 431)

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YEONMI PARK | A North Korean Defector’s Search for Freedom in America (Ep. 431)
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In this episode, Kyle Thompson interviews Yeonmi Park, a North Korean defector and human rights activist, who shares her harrowing journey from oppression to freedom. Yeonmi recounts her experiences of starvation, human trafficking, and the challenges of adapting to life in America, all while emphasizing the importance of resilience and faith.
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0:00 "This is Undaunted Life" a man's podcast.
0:21 I'm your host Kyle Thompson.
0:23 Let's get into it.
0:24 All right, guys.
0:25 Today we've got a special guest on the podcast.
0:26 Her name is Yeon Mi Park.
0:28 So she's a North Korean defector and also a human rights activist.
0:31 She wrote a memoir back in 2015 called "In order to live a North Korean girl's journey
0:36 to freedom."
0:37 And then she also has a new book out as of the recording this.
0:39 It is out now, "Wildtime Remains a North Korean Defector Search for Freedom in America."
0:45 And so a lot of you have heard her story because she's been on the Joe Rogan podcast.
0:48 She's been on the Jordan Peterson.
0:49 She's done some stuff with, yeah, I think Prager, you definitely done some stuff a daily wire.
0:53 The thing about this interview today, and I'm just going to tell you right from the jump,
0:57 we've done a lot of episodes.
0:58 Again, this is episode 400 something.
1:00 We've done dozens and dozens and dozens of interviews.
1:04 This is the best interview that we've ever done on the show, okay?
1:07 And I know it's kind of weird because it's like, I'm the one that did it.
1:09 So it's like, oh, bragging on yourself.
1:10 I'm like, no, no, just the preparation that went into it because, you know, I've basically
1:13 been working on this for about two years.
1:16 And we finally got it done, got it recorded in just hearing her perspective because in
1:21 guys, I don't really want to give anything away because there's so many details in the
1:24 books, her memoir, and then her latest book, and there's so many things that come out in
1:28 this interview.
1:29 If you've ever felt like a tough guy, you're not.
1:32 If you've ever felt like you're a really resilient human being and here I am, I'm the
1:35 guy that goes around preaching the gospel of resilience, right?
1:38 We don't even understand what trials really are, what, what having to be resilient, resilient
1:45 and digging down deep even is, but she does.
1:49 And she's somehow come out of it on the other side to be an activist and to also be an optimist.
1:54 And so, I mean, in this interview, we talk about what it was like growing up in North
1:57 Korea without information, without food, what it was like to literally be starving to having
2:02 to go to the field to try and find grasshoppers to eat, to get a little bit of protein.
2:06 We talk about her escaping to China and how she was sex trafficked for years, her and
2:11 her mother both.
2:12 She escaped to South Korea going across the Gobi desert when it was minus 40 degrees and
2:18 all she had, it was like a thin coat and bad shoes, making it to South Korea, making it
2:22 to America, getting to America after having experienced all of that.
2:26 And then she's surrounded by people that have never been hungry, never been cold.
2:29 And yet they're complaining about the trauma that they experience in their lives.
2:33 And then we also get into what she's doing for advocacy now and guys, I mean, again,
2:37 the entire time I'm doing the interview, I'm just like, okay, just don't mess anything
2:39 up.
2:40 Just set her up.
2:41 But we also talk about her, her Christian faith as well because she was helped out by
2:44 Christian missionaries.
2:45 And there's a little bit of dissonance with these missionaries because these were the people
2:49 that saved her from, from China and basically got her through Mongolia to South Korea.
2:55 But they also had a deep negative impact on how she viewed God and viewed the propitiation
3:00 that can be provided by the sacrifice of Jesus.
3:02 Yes, all of that is involved in this interview today.
3:05 And again, I just have to repeat that I've loved just about every interview that we've
3:09 done.
3:10 There's some that haven't turned out great, some turned out kind of dramatic.
3:13 But then there's been so many that have been so impactful on you guys and certainly on
3:18 me in my personal life, nothing as I sit here right now, having just wrapped up this interview
3:23 feels like this interview feels like it is on a completely different level.
3:26 So guys, I'm not going to keep her from you any longer.
3:28 So without further ado, let's get into it.
3:31 You on me, park.
3:32 Welcome to undaunted life.
3:33 A man's podcast.
3:34 Thank you for having me on.
3:36 I am so happy to have you on.
3:37 I've actually been, I feel like I've been working on this episode for a couple of years
3:41 because we've been trying to get you on.
3:42 I've been studying your materials and some of the things and you have a new book out.
3:45 But today's interview, we're going to be looking a lot at what you did with your initial memoir,
3:50 which is in order to live, which is just an unbelievably powerful book.
3:53 But then you have a new book out that's out right now as of the recording of this podcast
3:58 and its wild time remains.
3:59 And so those are kind of be the center points of our conversation today.
4:02 But I want to read a quick quote from your memoir because it kind of sets up what it
4:06 was like living for you in North Korea.
4:08 And so this is from your memoir in order to live.
4:11 I am most grateful for two things that I was born in North Korea and that I escaped from
4:16 North Korea.
4:17 Both of these events shaped me and I would not trade them for an ordinary, peaceful life.
4:22 So let's just start casually and just go to the introduction.
4:25 What was it like growing up in North Korea?
4:28 I mean, just one word.
4:30 It's horrible.
4:31 It's beyond anything that you can imagine.
4:36 I was growing up in North Korea and I've never seen the map of the world.
4:40 So I had no idea there was a country like America and this prosperous free country existed.
4:49 And the only thing that I knew actually about America was how horrible American people were.
4:55 I didn't even think that you guys were human beings.
4:57 My school teachers told me that you guys are cold-blooded reptiles who eat our children,
5:04 torture our children, rape our women and we were so fortunate that we had our dear leader
5:10 to defend us and keep us safe from American invasion.
5:14 So that's all I knew about the world growing up there.
5:18 And so obviously you touched on a little bit there.
5:20 The brainwashing, the brainwashing with kind of the understanding of the Kim family, what
5:25 other people were like, Americans being reptiles, just having a complete lack of information.
5:30 Talk to me a little bit about the overall lack of freedom because we'll certainly get
5:34 more into this later when we talk about when you relocated to the United States and everything
5:38 from your new book, but talk about when you're growing up in North Korea, what are the things
5:43 that we're used to here in America that you just have no possibility of doing if you're
5:47 living there?
5:48 I mean, for instance, even wearing a jin, in America, jins are okay, but in North Korea,
5:56 they even regulate goes down to what you wear, what you can listen to, what you can watch,
6:02 what kind of haircut you can have.
6:05 And there's no freedom of movement, people have no free press.
6:08 So there's nothing you can do by your own life free world, but this regime decides what
6:15 you belong to, who you're going to marry, what job you're going to have, is before even
6:20 your birth.
6:21 So when we were born in North Korea, we have 51 different classes.
6:26 And this caste system is based upon your loyalty towards the regime.
6:31 So basically, like currently in America, people are being divided by skin color.
6:36 Like I have a son who is half white, half Asian, I would say he's so screwed because
6:42 now people say that he has a oppressor jin, he's oppressed skin color, right?
6:47 Because he's white.
6:49 In North Korea, exactly the method that if my ancestors were capitalists or landlords,
6:56 that means my blood is painted, and that's why everybody's North Korean, like, depending
7:03 on your class, how much you get fed is decided based on your loyalty towards the regime.
7:11 And there's no movement between classes, right?
7:14 Like you can't marry into a different classes, that correct?
7:17 You can't move from one to the other.
7:19 So that's how they do, they try to prevent people to mixing up and moving around the
7:24 classes.
7:25 A lower caste caste will marry the higher caste men.
7:28 What happens is that the entire family of the men's caste all goes down with the women's.
7:34 So I mean, that's the reason why my family is going to do whatever it takes to oppose
7:39 the marriage.
7:40 That's how they prevent the, you know, mixing it up.
7:44 Gotcha.
7:45 And so you're talking about how the different castes that you were in, because most people
7:50 think of caste systems as like, oh, they choose who you marry, but in North Korea, it's just
7:53 completely different.
7:54 But you talked about the level of food that different castes would have there in North
7:58 Korea.
7:59 And so you've talked about this a lot, but I think it's interesting to live in a country
8:03 that is just, I mean, we're the fattest country on the planet.
8:06 It's just embarrassing how big we are as Americans.
8:10 But what you had to go through growing up in North Korea as it pertained to food will
8:15 never have to deal with here in this country.
8:17 So give us a little detail on what it was like growing up in terms of food, because there's
8:21 a lot that's been said about the malnutrition of North Korea, even just compared to South
8:27 Korea.
8:28 But I mean, for you, you actually experienced it.
8:30 Yeah.
8:31 I think it's sometimes really breaks my heart to see the food that we raised in America.
8:37 If we gave all that trash, basically to North Korean people, nobody would have the time
8:43 from starvation.
8:44 We are so hungry to the point.
8:46 Some even children would like to look for grains in animal faces.
8:52 Children would eat mud, even though they know that they're eventually going to cry, but
8:56 they cannot go back and die from eating mud.
8:58 They say eat that mud.
9:00 I myself had to eat grasshoppers, dragonflies, and anything I could find in nature to survive
9:07 in North Korea.
9:09 And this is based on the regime's policy that North Korea conducted more than 40 missile
9:15 tests for over the last three years.
9:18 One missile test is the price where he can fit the entire nation of North Korean people
9:23 entire year.
9:24 So if we conducted three less missile tests, nobody had to die from starvation in North
9:30 Korea.
9:31 But the reason why we are starving is if we had a full, you know, stomach of food in
9:37 our belly, we are going to start thinking about meaning of life, we are sick, thinking about
9:42 freedom.
9:43 So if they kept us starving like that, the only thing is going forced to go by finding
9:48 next meal.
9:50 That's why the regime using starvation as a tool to control the population.
9:55 So it's so interesting to hear you say that because I remember Jordan Peterson, who you've
9:59 got to spend some time with and so have I, and he wrote the forward to your new book,
10:03 which again, we'll get into a little bit later.
10:05 He talks about how starvation is basically been eradicated in the entire world, except
10:11 when corruption or corrupt governments are involved.
10:15 And so again, you just explained it there.
10:17 If the Kim's would not do the things they want to do with the missile program, they would
10:21 be able to feed the people inside their country, but talk to me a little bit more about the
10:25 Kim's and how they are viewed and how you are forced to view them growing up in North
10:30 Korea.
10:31 Because I think as Americans, we're familiar, at least tangentially with, with dictators.
10:35 We're familiar with, you know, these authoritarian fascist leaders.
10:38 We're familiar with, you know, Stalin and Polpot and Hitler and, and all these different
10:42 people.
10:43 But even in the height of Hitler's reign in Germany, no one thought he was divine.
10:49 No one thought he was sent here.
10:51 So, so give us a little bit of an education as to how North Koreans are to view the Kim
10:55 family.
10:56 So this is a very interesting point that people don't understand before the Korean war, before
11:01 the comments in came to North Korea, it was the East Jerusalem, it was the Jerusalem of
11:08 Korea.
11:09 The North Korean Pyongyang especially had the most vibrant missionaries that from the West
11:14 and there are so many Christians in Pyongyang.
11:17 And then Kim Il-sung's mother and uncle and his family actually were devout Christians.
11:23 So Kim Il-sung left home and was like trying to fight for the independence later when he
11:29 was placed as a leader by Stalin, he decided to get killed Christians obviously and persecute
11:38 them all.
11:39 And anybody, even through this day, if you own a Bible, you get executed in North Korea.
11:44 If you are a Christian, obviously three generations of your family get executed in the prison camp.
11:49 But at the time he realized he can be God.
11:53 And so he basically copied the Bible.
11:56 He's a 10 commandments to the North Korean elected or she gave to North Korean people.
12:01 And he said he loved us so much that he gave us his son, Kim Jong-il, and he's a Jewish
12:07 quest.
12:08 His body dies, but his spirit is with us forever and he knows what we think.
12:14 And then every Saturday North Korean children have to go to a classroom or their workplace.
12:20 We have to find this like a red note and write down verses of a Kim Il-sung, like a Bible,
12:25 Bible verses, write down Kim Il-sung, and then we say thank you dear leader, even though
12:31 I was not the best revolutionary for this week, for your mercy, you forgive my sin,
12:36 I will become better revolutionary next time.
12:39 And at the end of this criticism session, we have to pick our classmates to criticize.
12:47 And that instead destroys between people.
12:50 Like imagine even nine years old ago to school, an entire week you need to look for who has
12:56 done something wrong because you need to find somebody to criticize every Saturday.
13:01 So everybody's watching each other.
13:03 So in some ways, it's the most like crazy religious authority you can imagine.
13:08 And then for North Korean people, they don't even have 24 hours electricity in the 21st
13:14 century.
13:15 They don't even know the existence of the internet.
13:17 They don't have passport.
13:18 They have no freedom to travel.
13:20 But all they know is this lie prepared up from the regime.
13:25 And what you're describing on me with with all the things we've talked about so far is
13:29 just, it's a unique and interesting and just a deep level of suffering.
13:34 But when you're around that much suffering, it's got to be hard to process it also.
13:37 There's another quote I want to read from your memoir here.
13:40 There were so many desperate people on the streets crying for help that you had to shut
13:43 off your heart or the pain would be too much after a while.
13:47 You can't care anymore and that is what hell is like.
13:50 And you'll remember whenever I read that because I probably I read that part of your
13:53 memoir a couple of years ago and that stuck with me even to this day because I've talked
13:57 to other people that have been in war zones or that have been in these, these horrible
14:02 places where children are suffering or whatever.
14:04 And it's like, if you feel the way you want to feel about each of those individual children
14:09 or people, you'll just combust like you'll just explode.
14:13 It's not possible for you to take it all.
14:15 But take me through that because you weren't experiencing this as an adult.
14:19 You were experiencing this as a child looking upon these people that are in this just this
14:23 pathetic state.
14:25 And not only could you not do anything, but you couldn't even feel enough empathy to help
14:30 them or to give them a kind word.
14:32 I just can't really fathom it to be honest.
14:34 Yeah, it's a I just remember seeing this one young man or I don't know if he needs four
14:41 or like early twenties young man, when you're so man, you wish every hole in your body just
14:47 opens up and behind him, his organs were just falling out of him and they're like flies
14:54 and their dog is waiting for him to die off.
14:57 And why is organs all came out of him?
14:59 He was like, for food.
15:00 And I was looking down and I was just here numb at that point, you know.
15:08 And I think in some sense that's how our brain protects us to help us to survive the situation.
15:14 And in North Korea, it's a compassion is not a word that people use.
15:19 There's no word for love.
15:22 North Korean people die without ever someone said say to them that somebody loves them.
15:28 Like when I was in North Korea, my father never told him he loved me, he passed away.
15:33 So even very basic thing that is compassion, love is being denied.
15:38 Because Kim Jong Un was afraid that if people like he banned the mother's day few years
15:44 ago, and the thought was if we love our mothers, we are not going to love him as much.
15:49 So he even banned the love between mother and the child.
15:54 So in North Korea is a different planet, like even that very basic thing that as a human
15:58 can do empathy, that is now loved.
16:03 And you talk about the brainwashing and the control of thoughts, but now you're also talking
16:07 about the control of language in that, you know, I was shocked to read that there is no
16:12 word for love or empathy or compassion or something in the North Korean vernacular.
16:18 And so the what this all kind of led to, and again, we're skipping over a lot.
16:21 So I think it's well worth everybody's time to buy your new book, Wild Time Remains and
16:24 also your memoir, because you get into a lot of detail where we're just skimming the surface.
16:28 But when you were 13, you and your family decided that you would try to escape North
16:32 Korea and go to China.
16:34 And so human traffickers actually tricked you and your mother to follow them to China.
16:38 And in your memoir, you describe finding out that your mother was actually raped by one
16:42 of the traffickers.
16:43 And you found out that your mom had actually done this to protect you because it was actually
16:46 you that the trafficker wanted to rape.
16:49 And then a little later, you actually described seeing your mother raped by one of the traffickers
16:53 and how that was in the most macabre way, that was actually your introduction to the
16:58 act of sex.
16:59 And I've heard you tell the story many times and it's not lost on me that this is a terrible
17:04 thing to talk about.
17:05 But can you describe the decision making process to try and escape North Korea and then also
17:11 the subsequent issues that you ran into once you got into China?
17:15 Yeah.
17:16 So as you said, you know, North Koreans, we don't even know there's much else that would
17:21 exist.
17:22 And I was living on the border town of North Korea.
17:25 So I was able to see these lights and I coming from Chinese side.
17:30 And that's when we thought like if we go over the last war, we could find something to eat.
17:36 And my sister escaped first when she was six years old.
17:40 And then one week later, my mother and I followed her.
17:44 We found a lady who wanted to help us to cross the river into China.
17:50 And when you are so desperate, you don't even question.
17:52 If I didn't cross the night, I would die from starvation long ago.
17:57 So we didn't follow her and then she matched her to the broker.
18:02 And like you said, the first thing I was saying in China was my mother being raped.
18:09 And then they were selling us as sex slaves.
18:12 So there was one child passed in China that recently got ended.
18:17 Due to that policy, a lot of people were voting girls and kept the boys.
18:22 So now there are more than 33 million men who cannot find the wives in China.
18:27 So they buy North Korean girls as their sex toys.
18:31 And also for organ harvesting, they need to buy the girls and take their organs out and
18:38 discard their body because we are not protected by any law.
18:43 And killing was like a killing of mice, you know, not even a less valuable and dull one
18:49 pig.
18:50 Nobody going to hold them accountable.
18:52 And that was my favorite when I got to China.
18:55 It was in some sense, it's worse than what North Korea was.
19:01 And so you mentioned how how you and your mother were sold and you were actually sold
19:05 separately as part of these human trafficking transactions.
19:08 But one thing I felt that was interesting as you described the story on me is that you
19:12 describe what it was like hearing men barter and negotiate for you and your mother as
19:19 if you were an animal of some kind.
19:22 Take us through that because as a young lady, as a 13 year old, you're hearing these men
19:26 compare you and your mother and almost pit you against one another and where can they
19:30 place you?
19:31 Take us through that.
19:32 Yeah, I think I remember they would like me stand up and maybe turn around and check
19:39 my teeth and check our like bones and everything and see if we have any defects, right?
19:44 We are like disabled or not.
19:47 And then they started negotiating and my mom would just in her 40s just turn 40 or something.
19:54 So they were like, is she able to reproduce or not?
19:57 Because they, if the women can reproduce, then they will sell the babies as like foreign
20:03 like industry as a sex slave.
20:06 So a lot of those women are being bought and they buy them and they get impregnate them
20:12 and then they keep making them to get pregnant and sell those child.
20:16 And these are the more than a million of these children in China right now who were born
20:22 by North Korean women.
20:25 So they were negotiating that I was 13 years old and I was a virgin.
20:30 And this perverted men, they love child virginity.
20:34 So they were ranking my price over $20 and they were making my mother were sold for $65.
20:45 And again, it's just astonishing to hear that in this country where, you know, in this country
20:49 we have people that wait to have their families and then maybe they struggle to get pregnant
20:53 and then they have to go through all these different processes to get pregnant.
20:56 And it's, it's usually a joyous thing.
20:58 And then, then over there, it's like, again, you're just a commodity, just like, you know,
21:02 an animal giving birth to another animal that you can sell.
21:04 And so again, it just kind of gives you an idea of the level of depravity that you were
21:08 dealing with in that area.
21:09 And young me, things got so bad for you and your mother in China that you decided that
21:13 you were going to try to escape to Mongolia, but not to relocate and stay in Mongolia,
21:19 but with the eventual goal of making it to South Korea.
21:22 And so you were helped along in this goal of escaping by a group of Christian missionaries
21:27 and we'll talk more about the Christian missionaries here in a second.
21:30 But take us through that process of getting from China to Mongolia to South Korea.
21:35 Why did that have to be the way you had to go?
21:37 So in China, we don't have any paid passport or ID or documents.
21:45 And if we get caught by Chinese police, they would catch us and send us back North Korea
21:50 to get killed and tortured or send prison camps.
21:53 So we are extremely vulnerable.
21:55 The only way for us to escape from China was actually walking across the frozen Gobi Desert
22:02 into Mongolia.
22:03 And somehow if we didn't die in the desert and made it to Mongolia, then Mongolia might
22:08 help us to go to South Korea as refugees.
22:12 So you mentioned going across the Gobi Desert.
22:15 When most of us here desert, we think 100 degrees sand everywhere, but talk about crossing
22:22 the Gobi Desert at the time that you were crossing it because my understanding is, the
22:26 time of year that you were crossing the Gobi Desert, temperatures would get to -30, -40.
22:31 And it wasn't like you were in the world's best gear to make that trip.
22:35 So let's talk a little bit more about what it was like actually crossing the desert.
22:39 Yeah, so this was almost end of February 2009 when I was 15 years old.
22:45 We had one toddler in our group and we had a total eight people including that child.
22:52 And then they told us, gave us one compass and then told us, "Why don't you go far
22:59 out the north and mass direction and cross eight wire fences?"
23:05 And that might be Mongolia and if you get caught by the Mongolian soldiers, Ted and
23:10 then we are back to G. But going through these wire fences and desert, it's like they are
23:16 polar guards with machine guns.
23:18 If they see anybody cross, they're going to - it's not like an American border, you can
23:22 just walk in.
23:23 This literally just shoot you, shoot to kill the order.
23:27 Like they just shoot you and you die and no, this is cross the border illegally and that's
23:32 nobody can question their authority to do that.
23:35 And this, the wire fences are electrified.
23:39 So if you touch it, you can select wire and die.
23:44 So that's why we needed miracle and we chose the coldest month.
23:50 And so the guards would think like, "Nobody's crazy enough to go through this desert right
23:54 now because - 40 degrees, you breathe, it becomes all icy cold."
24:01 If you don't move for five seconds, you can literally die from freezing to death and we
24:06 don't have gears like gloves or hair or scarf, we're just wearing thin jacket, no gloves,
24:13 not no boots, just started walking from Gobi Desert and somehow against all of us, I survived.
24:20 So Yomi, I just recently read a book about a World War II pilot that was shot down over
24:25 Germany and then he was in a German POW camp.
24:28 His name is Frank Murphy.
24:29 And there was a death march that they were on and I remember hearing these stories about
24:34 these other soldiers that on this march in the snow, very, very cold, similar situation,
24:38 that these men would just walk out of line and walk into the snow and they would just
24:42 sit down.
24:43 And it's just like, "Look, I can't go anymore, I'm going to sit here and I'm going to die."
24:49 And these are strong, you know, young military-aged men, but they got to a point where they broke
24:55 mentally.
24:56 I want you to talk a little bit more because again, guys, we need to set the scene.
25:00 She was not in snow boots.
25:01 Yomi was not wearing a parka that you could, you know, wear and, you know, go up and climb
25:06 a mountain during the wintertime, thin jacket, thin clothes, not the world's best shoes.
25:11 You know, again, minus 40 degree temperatures.
25:14 Was there a time during that, Yomi, where you're like, "Okay, this is terrible.
25:19 Like I'd rather be back in North Korea or was it like, "Look, I'm either going to make
25:23 it or I'm going to die trying.
25:25 Just take me through that mindset because to be honest, I don't have anything that even
25:29 comes close to that in my life and I'm assuming most of the guys listening to this don't either."
25:33 Yeah.
25:34 It's like, what shocked me standing on that copy desert was it's like standing in front
25:40 of the middle of the ocean.
25:42 There is nothing indicates you that you're going forward or going circle or backward.
25:48 There's not, it's just pure sand and flat.
25:53 So I was thinking like, "Are we going back or are we going forward?
25:56 Are we going sideways?"
25:59 And then it was pitch dark.
26:01 Eventually we got to see some stars, but there's times throughout the night based on the cloud
26:07 everything you see some stars and become pitch dark.
26:10 And another danger that we had to avoid in the desert was not the soldiers, of course,
26:15 but then the animals.
26:16 They're very wide animals and snakes that's calm and eat people because they're very hungry,
26:23 too.
26:24 And I remember the missions that were told us that if you cross eight wire fences, it's
26:30 going to become Mongolia.
26:33 So we keep looking for wire fences.
26:35 But then you hallucinate, you know, because you want it so much.
26:39 You feel like there's a wire fence and you run and run and go, it's not there.
26:44 And it literally, you might just lose your mind at that point.
26:50 And I think that's when you don't even have strength to pray, all we said, it was Jesus
26:58 blood is my blood, Jesus blood is my blood.
27:01 And I think that's the only thing we said.
27:05 And just keep thinking that line, what that means, and just keep going.
27:10 And somehow miracle saved us.
27:14 And you made it to Mongolia and we'll get more into the rest of your trip here in a
27:17 second.
27:18 And that's something that you said earlier, because the Christian missionaries that helped
27:21 you told you and your mother to prepare for the very real possibility that you would be
27:27 captured and sent back to North Korea.
27:29 So I went actually read a quote from your new book that's out now, Wild Time Remains.
27:33 I remember preparing myself for suicide.
27:36 My mother and I had a plan for if we were caught, she had hidden dozens of razor blades
27:40 in my jacket and a plastic bag full of sleeping pills in her bra.
27:44 We cried as we rehearsed the steps if we got caught by the authorities.
27:47 We tried to lighten the emotional burden by reassuring each other that we were lucky
27:51 to be in such a position at all, to finally escape to freedom or else to finally be released
27:56 from hell.
27:57 Our journey to the other side, wherever that may be, would be together.
28:01 We would be together.
28:02 It would be to freedom and again, excuse me, just to even put yourself in that position
28:09 to where you're like, okay, I'm almost going on a suicide mission, walking across the Gobi
28:14 desert, but that's not nearly as scary as the colds, not nearly scary as the animals,
28:18 which isn't nearly as scary as the soldiers that are going to take us and send us back
28:21 where you would be executed immediately.
28:24 But it was almost like you and your mother, you took because you hadn't been in control
28:28 of your lives for your entire lives, but you were going to control your last moments on
28:33 this earth.
28:34 If that were to happen, again, I feel almost shameful even keeping to bring it up.
28:39 But none of us in the audience on me have ever gone through something like that or even thought
28:43 through that.
28:44 But take me through those moments where you and your mother were rehearsing your suicides
28:49 just in case you were captured.
28:52 I think that's the thing when I was living through North Korea and China, actually dying
28:58 was the easiest thing that I could do.
29:00 Dying takes the maximum five minutes, living takes forever.
29:04 So I think when we were preparing it, it wasn't like any sadness or anything.
29:10 We were just numb.
29:14 We were just trying to survive and if we don't make it, there was nothing made me resent
29:21 for at that point.
29:22 All I knew about the world was just darkness and suffering.
29:28 And we never learned how to complain even either.
29:31 That was not a thing for us or complain how unfair it is that we were born in North Korea.
29:36 I think all we just were thinking is, if we get caught, if we get caught, it's not they
29:42 are going to actually execute immediately.
29:44 They're going to send us back to North Korea and the first thing they're going to do is
29:48 raping us, taking our nerves away, they're going to torture us and they're going to let
29:54 us die in the most horrible way that you can imagine.
29:58 So actually killing ourselves just immediately was the biggest blessing that we could ask
30:03 for from God.
30:05 And I think that's what we're hoping.
30:07 If we get caught, please let us kill ourselves and we don't have to go that far.
30:14 So Yeonmi, when you were working with the Christian missionaries, you describe a moment
30:21 because everything that you've described as I read in your book or as I've heard you speak,
30:26 all that is awful in a physical way and an emotional way.
30:30 But then there was also some spiritual things that were going on in this moment that I just
30:34 would just absolutely took my breath away.
30:36 But when you're working with the Christian missionaries, you describe a time when the
30:39 pastor called a prayer meeting where you all would confess sins and ask for forgiveness.
30:45 Now this is different than what you experienced in the classrooms in North Korea, where you're
30:49 trying to point out the sins of somebody else.
30:52 This is a moment where you're basically confessing sins and asking for forgiveness.
30:55 And after you and your mother did this, that pastor pressed you to continue.
31:01 He wanted you to keep going and he wanted you to basically say your sins to the entire
31:06 group and ask for forgiveness.
31:08 And you and your mother at that moment actually confessed to working in sex chat rooms in
31:13 Xinjiang, China while you were basically just trying to survive.
31:17 Can you actually take us through that situation?
31:19 Because the pastor responded to you in a way that just absolutely made me sick to my stomach.
31:25 Can you take us through that?
31:27 So after we were bought, I was bought by the human trafficker.
31:33 And then I made it, I was going to kill myself.
31:35 I couldn't take that shame at 13 and then he said, "If you become my mistress, I'm going
31:41 to help you to bring your family."
31:43 So I sacrificed myself to bring myself to my family.
31:47 I became his mistress and he bought my mom back from the farmer.
31:51 I then brought my sick father from North Korea, but he passed away eventually.
31:55 So after two years of slavery, roughly, he wouldn't let me go for some reason.
32:02 But even if he lets me go as a North Korean doctor, we couldn't even get a job to wash
32:07 dishes.
32:08 We were begging, "Can we just let's wash some dishes and sleep in the corner of the kitchen?"
32:15 People would not let us to do that.
32:17 So the only place we could end up going was actually brothers where we would be in a room
32:24 and there's like 50 times of rape every day and the price for us was getting fed and staying
32:31 hiding in a room.
32:32 And then our friend, North Korean defector, told us there's a way we can be safe was actually
32:38 joined this chat room where no man physically touches, but we need to show our bodies to
32:44 do the webcam.
32:45 If we do that, they're going to give us the apartment to stay and it will give us food
32:49 to eat.
32:51 And that was the only way we could survive in China.
32:54 So now we meet this missionary in the prayer meeting.
32:57 He asked us to confess everything that we did.
33:02 And of course we confessed all this.
33:05 And then he said, "I think we are too dirty.
33:11 I think we are too guilty to be, I think, redeemed or forgiven by God."
33:17 And I think that's, I think trauma led me pretty, pretty bad.
33:21 That's, I think, for the first time I realized even though it wasn't my fault of going through
33:25 all of this, but the world is never going to forgive me what I did to survive.
33:32 So again, like I said, young me, whenever I read that, I was, I was sick to my stomach.
33:37 I was angry for you.
33:40 And two degrees, like I almost want to apologize, even though like it, I wasn't the one that
33:44 did that.
33:45 I feel like what the pastor should have done at that moment, there's a couple of scriptures
33:48 that came to mind.
33:49 But in 1 John 1, 9, it's, if we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive
33:54 us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness, okay?
33:58 So also in Hebrews 10, 10, and by that will we have been sanctified through the offering
34:03 of the body of Jesus Christ once for all.
34:07 So I guess I just want to tell you that the way that he acted in that moment, young me,
34:11 was completely inappropriate and also not in accordance with what we learn from the New
34:17 Testament scriptures of the Bible, there is not a single person that cannot accept the
34:22 righteousness that Jesus gives us from his sacrifice.
34:26 I just, I guess how is that affected how you've thought about Christianity moving forward?
34:31 Because even in your new book, you kind of mentioned spirituality, you mentioned God,
34:36 but you also mentioned some confusion there, but I can imagine that being a starting point
34:40 of some real confusion, if you have this supposed pastor telling you, oh, well, you're so bad
34:46 you can't be forgiven.
34:48 It's just not right.
34:49 It's just not biblical.
34:50 How is that kind of framed the way that you've operated?
34:53 I think, of course, it made me to think of Christianity to be in that way, right?
34:58 To hearing about God and Jesus Christ for the first time through that context made me feel
35:04 like they were very judgmental.
35:06 And it's to some sense very mean, you know, it's like, I was still 15 years old child
35:12 and he was saying, I'm so dirty, like, I was like, what can I do?
35:16 There's nothing I could have done for my past.
35:19 It was not my choice.
35:22 And then I think it took a while.
35:23 I became atheist.
35:24 I mean, believe it or not, after I always ask her, even though we promised to these Christians
35:28 that I'm going to become a Christian afterwards, I lied, I mean, I couldn't follow the religion.
35:34 I was like, so sick and I just thought, I feel like it was like almost the same method
35:39 always in our religion was doing to us that we are somehow, there's no mercy, right?
35:45 Nobody can be forgiven.
35:47 And then it took a while for me to think, rethink about it and he was thinking, people
35:53 are not perfect.
35:55 Even though that's what at the moment he said, if you look at his actions, he was the only
36:02 man who risked his life to come to China to rescue us.
36:07 There's so many people saying virtuous things sitting at home in the comfort of software
36:12 and AC and nice, like, refrigerator.
36:15 They talk about all the great things about how to make the world a better place.
36:18 They don't do anything when it comes to actions, they don't take any risk.
36:23 And then I think that's when I realized she was actually the greatest hero I've ever met
36:28 in my life when it comes to action and I think that's very important for us to realize the
36:34 action and also accept that not everybody is perfect.
36:38 And then when I had my own son five years ago, that's I think I made God.
36:44 I was for the first time seeing the miracle.
36:47 I was holding my son in my arms like, this is not what I did.
36:50 This is God's job.
36:51 Like God created this human being and for me to take care of him, right?
36:57 And then since that point, I think somehow I start having a relationship with God and
37:04 now I'm full equation.
37:07 It's such an incredible story again and we'll get more just into your mindset because again,
37:11 I'm a very pessimistic guy and I haven't had a rough life and somehow I'm still pessimistic
37:16 and I still get frustrated when the Wi-Fi doesn't work properly or whatever that type of thing.
37:20 But there are a lot of people on me here in this country and I'm sure you've experienced
37:23 this since you've lived here, that they will have one bad experience with a church person,
37:28 right?
37:29 Maybe it's a pastor or a priest and sometimes they call it church hurt.
37:33 I don't know if you've heard that phrase church hurt like the church hurt them in some way
37:37 and I'm not talking about the people that have been sexually taken advantage of.
37:41 That's a whole different category, people that have been taken advantage of financially.
37:44 I'm talking about people that there was a mean pastor or there was a judgmental pastor
37:49 and from that point forward, they shut off that entire part of their life.
37:52 They don't believe in God anymore.
37:54 They certainly don't believe in the sacrifice of Jesus to provide propitiation for us to
37:59 be able to be before the Father.
38:01 But for you, you didn't shut it off.
38:03 You shut it off initially, but you didn't shut it off entirely.
38:06 So take me through that a little more because again, in America, it's so convenient for
38:10 people, especially when you can have all your needs met so easily to be like, ah, God, Jesus,
38:16 I don't really care.
38:17 I think it was the same thing actually, I was in New York City and so many of my girlfriends
38:25 hate men.
38:26 They think that men are horrible and we have all these problems in the world because of
38:31 what men and because they're in power, there's so much violence.
38:36 And like you said, there is a rapist that there are men and I really like the any guy
38:42 that I met in China, they were all my rapists.
38:44 They were all trying to rape me, but then remember that my father was a man who was the
38:49 most amazing man.
38:51 He gave everything he had to protect his own family and providing for his family without
38:56 him.
38:57 I would not be here and any woman currently alive, they would not be here without their
39:01 father.
39:02 Right.
39:03 So I think understanding life not as black and white and under not generalizing it because
39:10 there's some one pastor who's not the perfect person now and I think everything is that
39:16 way.
39:17 It's in a way, it's very uneducated, very shallow way of understanding words.
39:24 And people say to you asking me, like, how do you not hate men, like, how do you date
39:28 men?
39:29 And if I need to become a lesbian, you know, and like I love men and I have a son who is
39:35 a man.
39:36 And I became very men's advocate and people get so backward like somehow I defend men
39:42 in my life right now.
39:43 Well, you know me, you brought up your father.
39:46 So I want to get into here in a second, I want to get into going to South Korea and
39:49 basically that kind of being the start of your new life.
39:52 But your father features very prominently in both of your books, very unique man.
39:58 And obviously you need to go get the books to kind of dig in there.
40:01 But it's almost like understanding the type of man that your father was a virtuous man
40:06 like your father was almost gave you a pathway to your heavenly father.
40:10 Cause I know men that have bad fathers on, on this planet.
40:14 And then they're like, well, why would I want a heavenly father?
40:16 My, my father's so bad or he's absent or he beat me or he any of those types of things.
40:21 But if you were to almost summarize some of the things that helped you get through this
40:25 outside of God, it was, it was your dad.
40:27 Your dad gave you some very special things that are, they're inside of you, young me.
40:32 And like, even though he's not here anymore, it's like his spirit lives on through you.
40:36 And I don't mean that in kind of a new age way.
40:38 I just mean like the spirit with which he lived with his perspective, his ability to
40:43 be thankful, even in the face of horrible, uh, depravity.
40:47 So tell me, tell me a little bit more about your father again.
40:50 I know it's like we have short shrift because we have to move on in this podcast.
40:53 But again, it seems like he still has such a big impact on you.
40:57 Yeah.
40:58 I think, um, yeah, he's, he's, he's persevering me at his, he is with me.
41:05 Uh, I think I never questioned that.
41:07 I think in even my second book, I opened it as what he told me that, uh, tigers when they
41:14 die, they leave their skin and when humans die, we live our names.
41:19 So make, make your name long and lasting.
41:22 And that really stuck with me, how he was even in that vicious, common, stickators, living
41:27 through, he still tried to make life meaningful, like virtues, you know, that was helping other
41:35 people that was not just about himself, but always serving other people.
41:40 She sacrificed everything for his family to protect us and provide for us.
41:46 And he literally providing for us means in our skills, risking his life.
41:51 She wasn't, and then that's how he was sent to prison camp and get tortured and send us
41:55 more than 10 years.
41:57 And he died at the age of 45, not knowing what freedom was, not knowing a life can be
42:03 this comfortable, it's this prosperous.
42:07 So in some sense, like this man, all he knew was darkness and suffering, but somehow he
42:13 was always able to see the light and he was so resilient.
42:18 He told me, no matter how hard life punch you and push you down, you always get back
42:24 up like you already pull it all.
42:26 That's why he told me as a young girl, I was like, do you see that little doll?
42:30 No matter what I do, she'll not come back up.
42:33 That's what you need to do.
42:34 So that's how I understood life and he said, no matter what, life is a gift.
42:40 You need to fight for life.
42:41 No matter what, this is life is the most precious thing.
42:45 And now I come to America, people live in this comfort, they, of course, they say like
42:52 babies, mothers, traumas are not babies and that there's no appreciation for life.
42:58 There's never been a time this easy to fight for life.
43:04 And somehow my father had an appreciation for life that I don't know where he came from,
43:09 but he had that.
43:10 And I think to this day that he inspires me.
43:14 What inspires me to young me to, because again, everyone here in America for the most part
43:20 can look at their lives and, or it was the Warren Buffett quote that you put in your book
43:25 to where it's just like, okay, there's eight billion people on the planet.
43:28 If you had a big jar and everybody's life were a marble and you put all the marbles
43:32 in the jar, would you take the chance of reaching into that jar and switching your life for
43:37 somebody else's?
43:38 And if the answer is no, that means you have a blessed life because there are a lot of people
43:43 in this world, guys, a lot of people, billions of them that would throw their hand in the
43:48 jar, hoping to God they would end up in this country or in a country similar to it.
43:54 And so for you on me, you go through what you go through in North Korea and then into
43:58 China and the Gobi desert and Mongolia, but then you eventually do make it to South Korea
44:04 and you're trying to put your life together and get established in South Korea and you're
44:08 trying to assimilate to a quote unquote normal life, whatever that looks like in a new country
44:14 that is part of the same landmass as your old country, right?
44:17 But take us through that process of being a Korean, but being North Koreans, speaking
44:22 a little differently, looking a little different, obviously being smaller than your South Korean
44:27 counterparts because of malnutrition.
44:29 There's a lot there.
44:30 Go ahead.
44:31 Yeah, I think of course I got to South Korea.
44:34 First thing they do is taking me to hospital that we've never been to a health checkup
44:39 as North Koreans and we've been in China, exposed everything, they make sure that we
44:45 are not bringing new diseases to the South Korean population.
44:48 After that was cleared, they would put us in a two month of isolation and interrogation.
44:54 Make sure that we are North Koreans and make sure that we are not spies.
44:58 Once I think it's clear they put us into this three month period of education where first
45:04 thing is that Americans are not [inaudible], they are not reptiles, they are human beings,
45:10 they are like living under democracy and they told, they chose what bankies had to take
45:16 a subway and then for the first time I learned that Kim's were dictators, they told me everything
45:24 that you were taught and to believe was a lie.
45:28 But the biggest challenge for me was, so everything that I was reading before was a lie, how do
45:35 I know that why you're telling me it's not a lie?
45:38 I just could not trust again and then for the first time I had a thing for myself and
45:45 that was so hard, like being free was so so hard, like for the first time I had a thing
45:52 like what I'm going to wear, what I'm going to do, what I'm going to study, what kind
45:57 of life I'm going to leave and thinking about the responsibility that comes from being free,
46:03 that overrammed me and at some point I was thinking if I go back North Korea and the
46:08 region would not execute me and giving me some enough frozen potatoes, I would want to
46:13 go back North Korea to be a slave again and just be taken care of by this region.
46:19 That's so interesting you talk about kind of how freedom is so hard and again this all
46:25 kind of goes to what happens whenever you get to America but we'll get there eventually.
46:29 But one thing that's very interesting about your time in South Korea, you on me is that
46:32 you gained a tremendous hunger for education because you weren't being educated in North
46:36 Korea, you were being brainwashed, right?
46:38 You were given propaganda, you weren't given the basics of anything.
46:42 But because of the state of North Korea, you were way behind your age group, educationally
46:48 in South Korea.
46:50 So take us to the process of I guess getting caught up and actually making your way to
46:54 a university in South Korea because from where you started to where you ended up just even
46:58 in South Korea, it was a tremendous accomplishment for you.
47:01 Yeah, I remember I got to South Korea and Korea and Asia I was 17 years old which means
47:06 high school age and my actual academic level was like less than like elementary school
47:12 since level.
47:13 Like I did not know, of course the alphabet, I did not know the word, I did not know anything
47:19 about science, biology, physics, like not none of it.
47:23 So I had to take the GED to catch up.
47:28 So I remember I was like reading 100 books each year and studying this subject, I was
47:34 eventually landing the ER from my institution because I didn't have time to eat in South
47:40 Korea, I was, I don't know, I slept two hours a day, three hours a day maximum, just studying
47:46 and studying in the library, catching up what I missed to learn.
47:51 And at the end half, miraculously, I was able to go university.
47:57 And so you get to university, you obviously do well there.
48:00 But then at some point, I know we're skipping around again, guys, all the details are in
48:03 the books, they're in the show notes, you can pick them up for yourself, but you actually
48:06 found your way on a trip to America.
48:08 Yeah.
48:09 And again, this place where as a child, you were convinced there were a bunch of raping
48:13 reptiles that, you know, these horrible people with tails and scales, you get to America.
48:18 What was it like when you saw America for the first time?
48:21 I remember I was going to Tyler Texas to something called youth with a mission, YM, the DTS group.
48:30 And in Kyle, like there's transitory flight that I think from Houston, after when I got
48:36 to Houston, I was very, very afraid like what is going to do to me, right?
48:42 I'm like landing to my enemy's territory.
48:44 And then this is a guy in their hoodies, eating their chips, gigantic smile and face
48:52 and saying hello, how are you, man?
48:54 And like these people are just so, so happy and so friendly.
49:00 And I think that's when I realize lies do not have power.
49:05 And there's truth, we do not need to be afraid from these lies.
49:09 They cannot hold it.
49:10 They just don't have power.
49:11 And all that fear and brainwashing is went away that's like just looking at this man's
49:16 smile.
49:17 Like, yeah, this is a, this is a different country.
49:20 This is now what those men, you can tell me about.
49:24 And so you get to spend this time in America.
49:26 And of course you got a nice little sense of Southern hospitality, which is great.
49:30 You spent some time in New York City.
49:32 And then again, you know, I'm skipping over a lot of stuff here.
49:34 You go through a visa process and you end up becoming a resident of New York City.
49:39 And then eventually you, you became a citizen in the United States.
49:41 I believe that just happened last year or so.
49:43 Congratulations on that.
49:44 I literally wrote in the margin like, yeah, great job.
49:47 And I like highlight.
49:48 It was like, you're finally, you're finally here.
49:49 You're one of us for real officially, but you settle in New York City.
49:53 I used to live in New York City.
49:55 I hated living there.
49:56 It was, I just, I had nothing to do with the speed.
49:59 It had everything to do with the people, the people didn't have time to stop and care
50:03 about you and to care about what you were doing.
50:06 And you understood that there were some immediate differences that you had to get used to, not
50:12 just from what you were growing up, like in North Korea or even from South Korea or even
50:16 from Texas, but there's just this different style of how certain people talk in certain
50:20 places.
50:21 And so there's actually a quote I want to read from wild time remains here.
50:24 It was strange to notice that my new friends and colleagues living in conditions of over
50:28 abundance also seem to have their own versions of trauma for which many of them were receiving
50:33 help from a doctor licensed in therapy.
50:36 So you're talking to these New Yorkers that have grown up, never been hungry, never been
50:40 cold or any of these types of things and they're experiencing trauma on a daily basis.
50:46 And here you are a North Korean defector and you're just like, Hey, where's the nearest
50:51 steak restaurant?
50:52 Because I need some more of this steak.
50:54 Take me through that because it's funny, but it's also just maddening at the same time.
50:58 Yeah, I think when I came to America, like my friends would like go look up restaurants
51:04 on Yelp and then looking at the reviews.
51:07 And then they would go to this most hip restaurant and be in the line for a for a while to eat.
51:13 And until that point of the for me, the food was all about quantity, never about quality.
51:17 I couldn't understand why it's been the line to eat some food.
51:22 And then like of course, these people are so prosperous, they would they would pay money
51:27 to go to a gym to burn calories in North Korea.
51:31 We had to conserve our energy to survive.
51:34 We couldn't spare any calorie and this people's problem was having too much food.
51:40 And then in this abundance, and like you said, safety, of course, it's so safe here.
51:46 They were like 80% of the minimum were going to see their therapist and they're telling
51:51 me how fine being a therapist is is harder than finding a right husband for them.
51:57 Because finding the right there is so hard.
52:00 And then they were like to ask me, why don't you go see a therapist?
52:04 And I was like, what is therapist like, Oh, because you have trauma, you're going to
52:08 go unpack your like trauma and talk about where it's coming from.
52:14 And I just of course, it costs a lot of money.
52:16 And I for me was like, what is the point of me surviving all of that?
52:21 Now, because I'm going to just talk about that for the rest of my life, how hard it
52:25 was to survive it.
52:26 But I think this people for them was like, I think it's their threshold to take any difficulty
52:33 in life is so low that they cannot function without complaining to somebody once a week.
52:40 And but I think I'm supportive of that because I mean, if that's the way you feel comforted,
52:45 that's fine.
52:46 But it's pretty funny that, you know, no, it's not funny.
52:50 That's where I'm going to interrupting, like, no, it is, it is super duper not fine that
52:53 we get to this point.
52:55 It's fragility, right?
52:56 It's just this overwhelmed sense of fragility that words can hurt us.
53:00 If people ask you a question like, Hey, where are you from?
53:03 That that's a microaggression that they're othering you.
53:05 And it's just, it's just silly nonsense.
53:08 But I think we can all kind of get an idea of where these ideas come from, because here
53:13 you are, you're way behind educationally, you almost kill yourself, trying to just get
53:17 caught up, right, you know, whenever you're going to school in South Korea, you go to
53:20 university in South Korea, but then you apply to go to one of the most famous Ivy League
53:25 schools in the world, Columbia University there in New York City, you were accepted.
53:30 And then you, you know, you became a student.
53:32 So here you are, you're excited, you're just, you're super excited before your classes
53:37 start.
53:38 Just before we get into your freshman orientation, because I have some questions there, just
53:41 take me through the excitement of thinking to yourself, man, I've made it.
53:44 I got caught up and here I am going to an American Ivy League school.
53:48 I think like what Dr. Peterson wrote the forward in my new book, he says, you know, the things
53:55 that I was able to achieve and going to Columbia was not in, it was beyond dream.
54:00 It was not something I could imagine.
54:03 Of course, growing up in North Korea, I had no idea what Ivy League schools were.
54:06 I can't even know what university was.
54:09 So going to Columbia was not even the feeling of achieving your dream.
54:13 It was like beyond that, there's no way to describe that feeling of doing something
54:18 that's so amazing that I couldn't even express that to that.
54:24 So you know, I couldn't sleep, literally, I couldn't sleep.
54:27 I was up or night.
54:28 I was just so excited and didn't even sleep because I was really excited and full joy.
54:34 And for me at the time, freedom meant learning, you know, I was always intellectually curious.
54:40 So I'm going to go to a place with the greatest mind, the greatest place where I'm going to
54:44 openly obey, openly learn ideas and find the truth and really learn how to think the liberal
54:51 arts education that what they're promising to do.
54:53 And that's what I was expecting when I was going to the campus that morning.
54:58 So you're excited, you're optimistic and everything seems like it's trending in the right direction
55:03 because you're ready.
55:04 You're prepared to do this.
55:06 But all that seemed to disappear immediately during your freshman orientation.
55:11 And it seemed like it disappeared immediately whenever somebody brought up Jane Austen.
55:16 And so take us through the Jane Austen story.
55:19 So in this a freshman orientation that we are all obligated to go is that we have to attend
55:26 this orientation before we start actual classes.
55:30 One of the instructors was telling us the importance of staying woke and it was really
55:35 before the first time I heard the word woke.
55:37 You know, I was like, I'm awake, like, how am I going to walk, right?
55:41 I was just so confused, like, yeah, I'm awake, that's what I'm here.
55:45 But then she was like, you know, not like giving us the example of being woke.
55:48 So she was like, okay, I'm going to give you guys the example who likes to read Jane Austen.
55:53 And I was my hands, I love reading and in North Korea, they said, we don't have love.
55:59 And there's a lady in the 18th century, like, talking about human emotions, like complexity
56:03 of being a human.
56:04 I was like, it's so touched.
56:06 And then she was saying, you know, by reading Jane Austen, you made to believe that somehow
56:13 only white men are capable of logical thinking.
56:16 And because she was living in the era of white colonialism, she arrived perpetuating
56:21 that white supremacy and systemic racism.
56:25 And that's how I am taking a part in this horrible, horrible, you know, oppression.
56:31 That's the example of staying being woke, to understand where all this, this oppression
56:37 is hiding, you know, beneath all of these things that we are seeing.
56:41 And I think I was like, I thought she was joking literally, I was like, just got to be a joke.
56:46 Right?
56:47 Reading one of the classical work of our achievement as a civilization.
56:51 Yeah.
56:52 This is a sign of oppression, I mean, you got to be a joke.
56:55 And then it just continues from there.
56:58 They were making us to go to this, a consent orientation where we all had to go.
57:02 And I initially, I was appreciated, like, I was after a rape victim and teaching everybody
57:07 to understand the consent between people before they have sex is important.
57:13 They were like, showing us, like, cartoons and videos and talk speech.
57:17 And then eventually what stopped me was like, okay, there's examples, right, two students,
57:23 like men and female and male go out in a bar and drink.
57:27 At the end of the night, both of them get drunk and then decide to have sex.
57:32 The next morning, women mixed up and she says, I gave a consent under influence.
57:39 I reread the sex.
57:41 That means that's a rape.
57:44 Even though men and women equally drank, drank their night.
57:48 But if the women change their mind the next morning, it's a rape.
57:53 So that's what I'm saying.
57:54 This is an insult to real, actual rape victims.
57:57 This is not a rape.
57:58 This is not how rape happens in real life, right?
58:01 They are bending the truth.
58:03 This is not what actual rape means.
58:07 And then the professors would write two emails to us.
58:11 Today's writing and reading is going to cover these topics if you trigger during any way.
58:18 Don't do the readings and don't even come through class.
58:21 And don't even need to tell me what triggers you.
58:25 So I was like, then why are you here?
58:27 If you can't handle reading some books, you should not be in the university.
58:32 And then professors said, if it's too much to handle, this oppression is too much for
58:38 them, right, then you need to bring your comfort to animals.
58:43 And at the time I was actually a new mom, I had a child, I was nursing, I had a pump
58:47 every two to three hours.
58:49 So I was asking my professor, can I bring my child?
58:52 And my nanny can be outside and if his naps can he stay next to me?
58:56 She's like, no, babies are not allowed in the classroom.
58:58 If they're just sleeping in, baby was like nursing by mother.
59:03 And then there was letting these puppies to come looking around us because they are comfort
59:08 animals.
59:09 And I think that's when I realized this country is getting destroyed, like this is a unwindness
59:16 in the fall of civilization.
59:18 Well, and these are supposed to be the betters, right?
59:22 These are the people that are in the Ivy League.
59:25 These are the smartest people that we have to give in our country.
59:27 And I thought it was very appropriate at the, it will not appropriate at all, but appropriate
59:31 to this person.
59:32 At the end of that freshman orientation, that whole Jane Austen thing, the person ended
59:36 her talk with, this is how we look for a hidden systemic racism and oppression.
59:40 And so here you are telling an 18, 19 year old incoming freshman to a college that no matter
59:45 what we study, whether it's chemistry or biology or, you know, some social history or mathematics,
59:54 no matter what you're studying, there's something hidden.
59:56 And it kind of reminded me of your classrooms in North Korea growing up where there's always
1:00:01 this hidden thing behind, you know, and this may be someone that, you know, said something
1:00:05 not so nice about the Kim's and now it's like, well, there's got to be racism or oppression.
1:00:09 That's like holding people back.
1:00:11 But there was also this constant fear that all of you were living in of being branded
1:00:15 as six herb.
1:00:17 So that is so six herb stands for sexist, intolerant, xenophobic, homophobic, Islamophobic, racist,
1:00:24 bigot.
1:00:25 And now a guy like me, you could call me all those things.
1:00:27 I will giggle and continue on with my life.
1:00:29 I really don't care if you say those things about me because I know who I am.
1:00:32 God knows who I am.
1:00:33 You have no idea, but you are in constant fear of being labeled one of those things.
1:00:39 And so it was almost like this freedom that you were supposed to be feeling in America.
1:00:44 You couldn't feel it in an American classroom because what if you express the wrong opinion?
1:00:49 What if you express opinion that went kind of outside of the normal parameters of these
1:00:53 people?
1:00:54 So talk to me a little bit about that because that just had to be crazy for someone like
1:00:57 you to feel like you're free, and then all of a sudden you feel like you're being gagged
1:01:00 in your own classrooms.
1:01:02 Yeah, I think it's paranoia that in North Korea, first thing my mother told me was don't even
1:01:08 whisper because the birds in mice could hear me.
1:01:11 She said, the most interesting I had in my body was my tongue.
1:01:15 If I say the one wrong day, that was going to kill me and along with three generations
1:01:19 of my family.
1:01:21 And now a Colombia class, obviously, you don't get executed.
1:01:25 But the consequence is real.
1:01:27 If you make look or gesture or anything that you made somebody unsafe, not physically punching
1:01:35 them, but emotionally unsafe because you need to have a safe space at Colombia, then you
1:01:41 can actually get kicked out of the university.
1:01:43 But not only that, because like you said at Colombia, everybody is going to investment
1:01:48 banking, the big tech, governments, and going to do business consulting companies.
1:01:54 Not that many things they can pay your tuition back after graduating, and a lot of them go
1:01:59 to UN as well.
1:02:01 And then you are going to work with your colleagues eventually, and they are like alonizing the
1:02:06 company.
1:02:07 So you cannot be marked as this one of six hertz, right?
1:02:10 If you do that, that is like almost being marked as a racist and that your library is
1:02:17 going away.
1:02:18 Your dignity just goes away, your reputation gets destroyed.
1:02:22 So everybody has to watch out.
1:02:25 If you see something, say something.
1:02:26 That's what American classroom says.
1:02:29 If you see something, say something.
1:02:31 It's like my teachers at North Korea mandatory us to report our classmates, criticize an
1:02:38 opening in what they do, and sit in the distrust between students.
1:02:45 That's why in North Korea, we don't have friends, we only have comrades.
1:02:49 It's a very different being commerce and friends in America.
1:02:54 Now they say, keep asking us if you see something, say something, and that paranoia just comes
1:02:59 back.
1:03:00 So it's the paranoia, but it's also that brainwashing that you were talking about to where
1:03:04 it's like, if you don't just parrot these things and say them the exact way and the
1:03:08 exact cadence that we want, you're going to be branded as one of these things.
1:03:11 And that was one of the most telling things and most heartbreaking things in your interview
1:03:15 that you did with Jordan Peterson, it actually brought him to tears when you said you felt
1:03:18 like you're time at Columbia, not your time at, you know, butthole state, you know, community
1:03:23 college, but like Columbia was a waste of your time.
1:03:27 And he was just appalled because this is, this is an academic, this is an academic mission.
1:03:31 This is a guy that has dedicated his life to education and to a college university campus.
1:03:36 And he's just so appalled at where it is now.
1:03:39 But the thing about what you did is you took your education and then you almost accidentally
1:03:45 moved into advocacy, but not like what some of your classmates were doing, but it was
1:03:50 almost like you were forced into this year on me because you were invited to give a speech
1:03:53 in Ireland.
1:03:55 And this speech went viral and it kind of sent your life on a different path that then maybe
1:04:00 what you were expecting.
1:04:01 So take us through that, that event in this speech and why you think it had such an impact.
1:04:06 So I was invited to speak at this one year world conference in Ireland doubling.
1:04:12 And I was for the first time in the big stage I shared my story and what was happening to
1:04:18 North Korean people and the North Korean modern day slaves in China.
1:04:22 And I think that they were just, there's more than 2,000 people from all around the world
1:04:28 were standing there and crying with me.
1:04:31 And I think that they was for the first time my faith in humanity that was stored.
1:04:36 I lost my faith in humanity when I was in China.
1:04:39 These humans were the worst things I've ever seen in my life.
1:04:43 And then I was realizing if I let the world know what's happening, I might be able to
1:04:48 stop this modern day Holocaust.
1:04:50 You know, it's not what I'm saying, the UN said the only thing that we can find in the
1:04:56 human history, what's happening to North Korean people, the powers are not the Germany's Holocaust
1:05:02 and Stalin's World Cup.
1:05:04 So Holocaust is repeating our game and we are silencing again.
1:05:08 So I was thinking I can change it.
1:05:10 I think that's for the first time I realized that I can make people to aware what's happening.
1:05:17 So from there on, I was writing my first book, I came to New York to resume my education.
1:05:23 And one step by step, and now here I am, I'm a conservative writing Nazi.
1:05:32 That's right.
1:05:33 Join the club.
1:05:34 We're happy to have you.
1:05:35 You're an American Nazi.
1:05:36 Good for you.
1:05:37 The thing was, is you were being invited to speak at a lot of places.
1:05:40 But again, growing up in North Korea, there were certain people that their names weren't
1:05:44 recognizable.
1:05:45 Certainly their companies weren't recognizable.
1:05:47 And you were invited to come speak to a guy's group and his name was Jeff Bezos.
1:05:53 And he was, you know, this guy who ran a company called Amazon and you basically said,
1:05:57 Nah, I'm busy.
1:05:58 I can't do that.
1:05:59 But then he asked you again to come and speak at something called campfire.
1:06:02 And this time, by this time, you know who Jeff Bezos is, you know what Amazon is, obviously
1:06:07 you'd been in America for a while, and you accepted his invitation to go and speak at
1:06:11 campfire.
1:06:12 Now, I was not aware of what campfire was.
1:06:13 Can you, can you take us with that, what, what that was and then kind of like what it
1:06:17 was like once you got there?
1:06:18 Yeah.
1:06:19 So I think like this is a thing when I came to America, I had no chance.
1:06:23 I had no idea what's the difference between Democrat or conservative, you know, or liberal
1:06:27 or the left.
1:06:28 I have no idea what's even the stereotypes of gender, like genders or even race.
1:06:34 Like in North Korea, I did not know there's a different race existed.
1:06:38 I come here to pure blank space.
1:06:41 And then like I said, I was invited to go to attend the say of the record, the gathering
1:06:47 that Jeff Bezos holds it each year.
1:06:50 And that he usually, I heard the whole this event in New Mexico where he grew up.
1:06:55 But in that year, that result was going through innovation.
1:06:58 So he was holding in Santa Barbara, California.
1:07:01 So she would send a private jet to New York, the private airport to bring his guests.
1:07:08 And I think approximately, I might be wrong, around 150 people to go.
1:07:13 So the attendees are like billionaires and most famous Hollywood stars and writers and
1:07:20 one of the person that I had to fly together was Harvey Weinstein.
1:07:25 So I had no idea who Harvey Weinstein was either, like I just didn't know.
1:07:30 I got there playing, I was waiting and somebody was running late.
1:07:34 So we had to wait for this guy.
1:07:35 And then he gets in and he comes shake everybody's hands and like, shook my hand, hey, I'm Harvey.
1:07:42 And then okay, cool.
1:07:44 So we got to Santa Barbara, and of course there's Tom Hanks, we sweet respond.
1:07:50 I mean, what was the guy who was in Mad Men, John, somebody?
1:07:55 Yeah, I know you're talking about, I can't think of his name.
1:07:57 Yeah, like literally, yeah, John, I'm like, anybody you've been seeing on the main TV
1:08:03 screen is like there, right?
1:08:05 And the people who, like this billion, you're like clothing companies and tech companies
1:08:10 are there.
1:08:12 And then he's a several days of treat where we hear stories on the, like fireside chat
1:08:18 almost like that.
1:08:20 And then the first day, Harvey would give a speech, how he comes from Flushing, Queens
1:08:24 come from nothing.
1:08:26 He really, he's great, he became successful, now he's helping a lot of marginalized children
1:08:33 and giving money to a democratic party.
1:08:36 And then, you know, how he was getting money from Saudis to have this cause.
1:08:40 And like, and in this speech, like everybody stood up, giving him a standing ovation and
1:08:45 calling the man, I mean, the legend, and he was like, everybody was on the minor knee.
1:08:51 And of course, like a few months later, the me too goes off.
1:08:55 Yeah.
1:08:56 And like, so yeah.
1:08:59 So you're there and eventually you get to give your speech, everybody gets to give their
1:09:02 speeches and your speech is obviously a little bit different.
1:09:05 And so you give your speech and it leaves people in tears.
1:09:09 People are like leaning forward.
1:09:10 They're like, oh, how can we help?
1:09:12 And I think at one point, you even said Jeff Bezos was in tears and just like, it's just
1:09:15 kind of this crazy situation.
1:09:17 But that was kind of the first experience where you were around very, very important
1:09:21 people.
1:09:22 You told them your story, they sounded like they gave a crap, but then when it came to
1:09:26 actually doing something about it, they wouldn't really do that.
1:09:30 And you went to other events and other speaking engagements and it was all very similar.
1:09:34 You would be with politicians or these famous people and the, oh my gosh, that's so hard.
1:09:38 That's so crazy.
1:09:39 And then you would move to the point where it's like, okay, here's what we can do about
1:09:41 it.
1:09:42 And then they would disappear.
1:09:43 Then I actually read a quote from your new book, which kind of gets into this over the
1:09:46 course of the following years, I delivered speeches at Google, Facebook, the United Nations,
1:09:50 the US Department of State and the TED conference describing what I knew to be happening under
1:09:54 the Chinese Communist Party and the North Korean regime.
1:09:57 It was the same consequence of events everywhere I went.
1:10:00 Lots of tears, lots of embracing and handshaking, lots of solicitous empathy to offers to help
1:10:07 are followed by lots of silence.
1:10:09 Now, the reason for this that we can surmise is it almost all came back to a singular reason.
1:10:15 And that's China.
1:10:17 And people don't really understand the connection between the regimes of North Korea and China.
1:10:22 Everyone understands the importance of China to the world because of the amount of stuff
1:10:26 that we buy from them, the amount of things that they export directly to us, the things
1:10:31 that we've offshored to them to make for us.
1:10:33 Certainly China has a lot of countries around the world by the balls, as it were, when it
1:10:38 comes to the things that they're able to produce.
1:10:41 But talk to me a little bit more about that to where it's like you're trying to be an
1:10:45 advocate.
1:10:46 You're trying to make change for the people that are still stuck in North Korea, people
1:10:49 that you know personally and love.
1:10:52 And then you have all these people in the world that can do something about it.
1:10:55 But then they just refuse to because they're scared of daddy China.
1:10:58 Yeah, I think this is one of the chapters in the book I wrote, he talked with the elites
1:11:03 that, initially, I believe these people, you know, Hillary Clinton was all about women
1:11:09 empowerment, you know, standing up for girls in the world.
1:11:13 And I was meeting next Pelosi and anybody can imagine who were the movers and shakers
1:11:18 in the world.
1:11:19 And they were openly has been talking about, they've been denouncing slavery in America.
1:11:24 They've been saying that silence is violence, you need to stand up for justice.
1:11:29 And I was thinking, okay, these people are saying all this wonderful stuff.
1:11:33 Now is I just need to tell them what is the actual injustice happening.
1:11:38 So I would go tell them about this, these things like there are 300,000 North Korean
1:11:43 girls in China.
1:11:44 There are organs that have this out of them, they are being sold like livestock.
1:11:48 The children of these women are more than a million of them.
1:11:51 They are also becoming, they are in slaves.
1:11:54 So there are governments sponsored the modern-day slavery happening in China.
1:12:00 And the North Korean regime had 25 million slave North Korean people because they are
1:12:05 also sponsored by CCP.
1:12:07 And we need to hold the China accountable.
1:12:10 So I've been asking him to do something.
1:12:12 And then they said, I'm sorry what you went through, but please don't say how I know
1:12:16 you, that you know me in public.
1:12:19 Because they need to make money out of CCP, their business ties with the CCP are so big.
1:12:25 So these people, they only stand up for gay rights when they get applause.
1:12:30 Right?
1:12:31 They only stand up for minority rights when it's good for them.
1:12:34 When there's actual consequences of standing for truth and justice, they don't do that.
1:12:39 It is a lip service to disloggance, like blood lives matter all day long.
1:12:44 And slavery was wrong, the America was horrible, we need to abolish slavery, and that thing
1:12:51 ended.
1:12:52 But there's a lot of slavery is continuing to happen the modern day, they do not want
1:12:56 to denounce that.
1:12:57 This is the only convenience they pretend to fight for justice.
1:13:02 And in reality, they are helping these dictators, they're helping these criminals, and in which
1:13:07 just themselves and completely corrupt people are in American mainstream, in Hollywood,
1:13:13 in media, in education.
1:13:15 And I think American public, I did not know that either.
1:13:19 Like I somehow thought these people were virtuous, because that's been all they're doing, they've
1:13:22 been purchasing all their life.
1:13:25 And I think finally I woke up to understood, American ruling class are so corrupt.
1:13:31 And they're lying to American people.
1:13:33 Absolutely.
1:13:34 I couldn't have said it better myself.
1:13:36 As you were describing that, somebody that came to mind was LeBron James.
1:13:38 This is a guy that hops on every single racial story in America.
1:13:42 He gets out over his skis.
1:13:44 And he's a, he's a billionaire, right?
1:13:45 This is one of the most successful black men in the history of humanity.
1:13:49 But he doesn't have anything to say about the, the gravity, what's happening in China.
1:13:52 Why?
1:13:53 Because a bunch of children putting together his shoes for him so that he can sell them
1:13:56 and make money through Nike.
1:13:58 And he's just one of the many, many examples of people, even the ones that you laid out
1:14:02 in your book.
1:14:03 And that's kind of an interesting thing.
1:14:05 You know, we talk about these, these racist incidences that happen in America, you know,
1:14:09 where these unarmed black men are being apparently hunted down by these roves of white supremacist
1:14:14 cops, even though every single year we're talking about maybe 15 or so unarmed black men are
1:14:19 shot by police.
1:14:20 And a lot of those men were unarmed, but they were just armed right before they were shot,
1:14:26 or they were trying to run over the cop with their car before they got out and ran and
1:14:29 were shot or something like that.
1:14:31 So again, it's the narrative versus the reality.
1:14:34 And there's the, you know, whatever people think, and then there's truth.
1:14:37 But then there's something that happened to you when you were walking through Chicago
1:14:41 one day with your baby in broad daylight, and this was kind of like a center point of
1:14:46 the new book, while time remains, and it kind of led you to even write the book, because
1:14:51 this thing had a massive impact on you.
1:14:53 So take us through that story and take us through what happened.
1:14:56 So yeah, well, after I graduated from Columbia that year, I couldn't even go to graduation
1:15:01 because of the pandemic, they would lock down the cities, close all the small businesses
1:15:06 and restaurants, and we couldn't go anywhere.
1:15:09 So it was August during the loutings of BLM, at Georgia Floyd summer.
1:15:14 When the grocery stores get looted, they couldn't go buy the nicks for my son.
1:15:19 The house, how children's house better get looted.
1:15:23 Literally, they would burn down the prescription piers so people could not get their prescription
1:15:29 piers.
1:15:30 This is a completely evil activist people committee.
1:15:32 And the main media means to me, they say, there's really not enough much virus.
1:15:36 They're completely lying to people.
1:15:38 And I'm leaving the heart of downtown, and these people are saying they're going to destroy
1:15:42 Trump Tower.
1:15:43 And I'm really like living next to that.
1:15:46 And the government's still not denouncing them as a domestic terrorist.
1:15:50 Like literally, there are people going to destroy a building, and entire bridge goes
1:15:54 up.
1:15:55 There's checkpoints.
1:15:56 That's not the domestic terrorism.
1:15:58 And that day, I was going to go out to get some fresh air with my son and with my nanny,
1:16:03 and I was pushed in the broad daylight.
1:16:06 I was pushed to the wall, and these girls would come.
1:16:10 They were black women punching me and take my wallet out of me.
1:16:15 So I was using my phone to try to record and try to call the police on these girls.
1:16:20 But then that's when I couldn't believe it.
1:16:22 The people on the street would see me being robbed and getting punched.
1:16:26 And your mother would be the two years of the baby next to her.
1:16:29 They would circle around me and screaming at me that I'm a racist.
1:16:34 That person's skin color does not make them a thief.
1:16:37 You're a racist.
1:16:38 You're crazy.
1:16:39 Why are you doing this?
1:16:40 You're looking into my eyes.
1:16:41 Why are you doing it?
1:16:42 Because I was trying to call the police on these girls.
1:16:45 These thieves, the criminals.
1:16:48 And I said, remember, in this people's eyes, there's a rage, like, to looking at me.
1:16:53 Why are you doing this?
1:16:54 I'm like, it's a common sense if you get robbed and punched, you'll eventually record the
1:16:59 police.
1:17:00 But I didn't deserve justice because my skin color was not black.
1:17:05 American at a point, they decided who deserved justice and compassion helped based on their
1:17:10 skin color.
1:17:12 Like North Korea, if your blood painted the landowner child, you don't deserve food.
1:17:17 You need to die, get tortured, and be a slave.
1:17:20 And like that.
1:17:21 And that's when I understood it was just not a college that was crazy.
1:17:26 This ideology, this horrible evil ideology that made North Korea's, came outside the
1:17:31 campuses and now is on the street.
1:17:34 They lost their common sense.
1:17:37 They become mad and they would refuse to help me.
1:17:40 And they were blocking me to call the police.
1:17:45 It doesn't even, I feel like you're on me, if you had tried to write that, like you're
1:17:49 writing a novel and you had tried to think of what is the dumbest possible situation
1:17:54 that somebody could go through, I don't even know that you would have came up with a situation
1:17:58 like that.
1:17:59 No.
1:18:00 But as I'm reading it, it's like, yep, I can totally see that happening in a major American
1:18:04 city like Chicago.
1:18:05 And so it's like, you experience everything that you've experienced in your life on me,
1:18:10 everything that we've talked about and everything that's in your books.
1:18:12 Again, guys, go and buy wild time remains out now and also your original memoir in order
1:18:17 to live.
1:18:18 But there's one quote that, and we'll make this the last question of the day because
1:18:21 there's a quote from your new book that, frankly, I don't, I don't understand it.
1:18:25 I don't understand how you could write this, but I'll go and read it here.
1:18:29 It is not just the basic provisions of everyday life, nutritious food, clean water, light
1:18:34 heat, a bed to sleep in that I now regard as minor miracles.
1:18:37 I feel a deep appreciation and awe for human freedom as a whole, the right to exist, the
1:18:43 ability to think, to love, to walk or sit without looking over my shoulder, to take
1:18:47 two consecutive breaths uninterrupted by fear.
1:18:50 I feel that I have an unusual capacity for gratitude now.
1:18:54 And I owe it to the 16 year nightmare that was my previous life.
1:18:58 In the most twisted way imaginable, I actually, I actually regard that time as a blessing.
1:19:04 So you look at the first 16 years of your life, literal hell on earth, where you were thinking
1:19:11 about dying being better than living, right?
1:19:14 You know, you mentioned it earlier in the show, the show, like, you know, up to five minutes
1:19:17 maximum, it would take you to die, but it would keep you from having to live for the
1:19:21 rest of your life.
1:19:22 Whereas most of the people on the planet are like, what can I do to live as long as possible?
1:19:27 You've experienced everything, brainwashing, rape, the things you've experienced here
1:19:32 in this country.
1:19:34 And you say that you regard that time as a blessing.
1:19:37 And every time I hear you talk on me, you're super positive and you're super hopeful and
1:19:43 optimistic about what the rest of your life is going to be like for you.
1:19:47 And now not just for you, but for you and your son.
1:19:50 Explain that to me.
1:19:51 Again, the eternal pessimist that you're talking to right now, yeah, right now on me,
1:19:55 it doesn't make sense to me how you can have that life and have this mindset.
1:20:00 Explain it.
1:20:01 Hey, there's this, right, it's without darkness, I guess we cannot see the light, like fishing
1:20:07 the water.
1:20:08 Don't notice the water.
1:20:10 People who are born with two arms will never be able to imagine life without one arm.
1:20:15 I think for Americans who are born in freedom, for them, it's just natural thing like fishing
1:20:20 the water.
1:20:21 They just take it for granted and natural in some sense.
1:20:24 But for me, I was born in that darkness, I come here, it's not a natural thing for me.
1:20:29 For me, it's a very unnatural to be free and life can be this unbelievably good.
1:20:36 I think because of that, I don't have to spend a penny on therapy.
1:20:42 And also, I now understand how amazing, how resilient humans are.
1:20:49 In America, we're tiny little discomfort they give you medicine.
1:20:52 Like when I was pregnant with my son, my doctor and every appointment she was asking me, do
1:20:58 you get like a big depression, postpartum, depression is a very common thing for women
1:21:03 or do you need medicine for that?
1:21:06 Like, everything is over medicated in America, like somehow you cannot feel anything little
1:21:11 discomfort.
1:21:12 That's not okay somehow in this culture.
1:21:15 And that eliminates your ability to overcome challenges in life, to become strong and finding
1:21:21 a big percents of who you are.
1:21:24 I think because of my nurse Korean experience in some sense, like, you know, everything
1:21:29 in life in America is a piece of cake.
1:21:31 I don't need a pierce, I don't need a therapy, and I don't need to live in a mansion, like
1:21:37 I'm just grateful for probably everything.
1:21:41 And I'm just grateful that I have a health, I'm free, like I have muscle over my head.
1:21:47 And I think in some sense that, that's why I think I'm so grateful that I was not born
1:21:53 here.
1:21:54 Because if I've born here, I might be one of those kids on their juicy talks, on their
1:21:58 expensive or pants, on their laptop, I'm going to talk about social justice and complaining
1:22:04 how horrible capitalist means.
1:22:08 It's just incredible to hear you say that.
1:22:09 I mean, at Undaunted Life, we equipped men to push back darkness with content that forges
1:22:14 spiritual, mental and physical resilience.
1:22:17 And so I go around preaching the good news of resilience to people all over the place.
1:22:21 And we have listeners all over the world.
1:22:23 But I have never spoken with somebody who embodied resilience more than you.
1:22:27 So I just wanted to tell you to bravo to everything that you've done, that you've come through
1:22:31 and also the work that you're doing now.
1:22:33 I really appreciate all the time that you spent with us today.
1:22:36 But that's all for me.
1:22:37 Is there anything else you want to get off your chest?
1:22:38 No, Fabio.
1:22:39 Thank you so much for having me on.
1:22:42 Me Park, thank you for coming on Undaunted Life, a man's podcast.
1:22:45 Thank you.
1:22:46 There you go, guys.
1:22:47 Hope you enjoyed my time with Yomi Park.
1:22:49 But before we let you go, we are going to do a quick resilience boost at Undaunted Life.
1:22:52 Our mission is equipping men to push back darkness with content that forges spiritual,
1:22:56 mental and physical resilience.
1:22:57 So the links I've got for you today, I've got a link to Yomi's website and they've got
1:23:00 a link to where you can pick up her new book, While Time Remains, a North Korean defector's
1:23:03 search for freedom in America and also her memoir in order to live a North Korean girls
1:23:08 journey to freedom.
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1:23:43 I'm your host Kyle Thompson, remember, keep pushing back darkness, keep forging spiritual,
1:23:49 mental and physical resilience, keep seeking the Lion of Judah.
1:24:09 Your baby resides!
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