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JAY HEWITT | I Am Weak I Am Strong (Ep. 664)

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JAY HEWITT | I Am Weak I Am Strong (Ep. 664)
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In this episode, Kyle Thompson interviews Jay Hewitt, a pastor and Ironman triathlete who completed a grueling race while battling terminal brain cancer. Jay's story of resilience and faith serves as a powerful reminder that even in the face of overwhelming challenges, we can find strength through our weaknesses.
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0:59 This is Undaunted Life a man's podcast.
1:22 I'm your host Kyle Thompson.
1:24 Let's get into it.
1:25 All right, guys.
1:26 You've got a special guest on the podcast today.
1:27 His name is Jay Hewitt.
1:29 He's a pastor, author, and Ironman triathlete.
1:32 He actually completed in an Ironman triathlon while undergoing treatment for terminal brain
1:37 cancer.
1:38 He writes about all of this in his book called "I am weak.
1:41 I am strong building a resilient faith for a resilient life."
1:44 If you know anything about my show, you know the word resilient.
1:47 That just appeals to my brain.
1:48 This is a tremendous story of resilience in this book.
1:51 The book certainly does get practical as well.
1:52 It doesn't just stay out there in the memoir world, but it's a practical story of a guy
1:56 who got this terrible news in his late 30s, and he could have just rolled over and literally
2:00 died or just rolled over and stopped really paying attention and stopped.
2:03 Yeah, we'll just kind of let these pills do what they do and the surgery do what they
2:06 do.
2:07 And then we'll just kind of figure it out.
2:08 But he ran to God in this moment, but he also ran to resilience.
2:13 And so we go through all of the story of like, okay, he gets sick.
2:17 Now what?
2:18 Okay.
2:19 What about surgery?
2:20 Okay.
2:21 He decides he's going to do an Ironman triathlete, which triathlon, which in terms of endurance
2:24 races is one of the hardest things that any human being could possibly put themselves
2:27 through, much less doing it while undergoing chemotherapy, radiation, post cancer surgery.
2:32 So we get into all those details why he did it, what the motivation was, setbacks that
2:37 he experienced during training, setbacks that he experienced because he was trying to run
2:41 this race during COVID.
2:43 And you know, these races were going to be outside.
2:44 But you know, remember back in 2020 and all those different times where it was like we
2:48 pretended like COVID was going to track you down like a heat seeking missile and go up
2:51 your nose at the time.
2:52 And so he has all these races canceled that he's been training for.
2:56 And you know, what do you do whenever you have an injury?
2:58 Like, how do you, you know, keep going towards your goal, but then coming backwards and how
3:01 are you going to do a race when they're not actually holding races?
3:04 Guys, we get into all that information in this podcast.
3:07 So I don't want to actually ruin the story for you.
3:09 So come along on that journey with us.
3:10 So without further ado, let's get into it.
3:13 Jay Hewitt.
3:14 Welcome to another life of man's podcast.
3:15 How are you today?
3:16 I'm doing well, man.
3:17 Thanks for having me on.
3:18 Okay.
3:19 We got a lot of ground to cover today.
3:20 We can jump right on in because at a very early age, you and I have kind of a similar
3:26 story in that we got obsessed with a particular type of exercise.
3:31 But I will say that I got it on a different side.
3:34 So I got obsessed with like pro wrestlers.
3:36 And my dad told me like, look, you don't just get muscles and get to keep them.
3:40 You have to like keep doing stuff in order to like keep them and get them and all that.
3:44 But as far as I understand it, when you were 10 years old, 10 or 11 years old, this is back
3:48 in the late eighties.
3:49 You saw Iron Man athletes for the first time.
3:52 And so similar to what Hulk Hogan and macho man Randy Savage were for me, these Iron Man
3:56 athletes were for you.
3:58 So take me through that.
3:59 Yeah, brother.
4:00 Well, first I got to say, I was right there with you with the WWF at that time.
4:04 That's right.
4:05 It was WWE.
4:06 That's right.
4:07 That was all about it.
4:08 But you're asking me about Iron Man.
4:10 Yeah.
4:11 When I was 10 years old, watching a wide world of sports, Iron Man triathlon came on.
4:16 And I, I thought there was no way.
4:18 When I was watching and I was learning, because I'd never heard of it before.
4:22 And when I heard that these athletes were doing 140 miles nonstop, they're swimming,
4:29 they're cycling, they're running, I just thought these people are superhuman.
4:34 They're not normal.
4:36 And you know, at that point, I was 10 years old, not in a real healthy home environment.
4:41 So at that point, I didn't think, oh, I want to, I want to become an Iron Man.
4:46 That wasn't on my radar at all.
4:48 But I was just so impressed that guys could do that.
4:53 So tell me, like, was it something where you were like, okay, sorry, I got to back up
4:57 on my own question.
4:58 So when I got obsessed with WWF and all those guys, like I had the wrestling buddies, like
5:02 I was jumping off my bed and like elbow dropping.
5:05 I was like doing super fly Jimmy Chinooka stuff off of my roof onto the grass and things
5:09 like that.
5:10 So did you think like, okay, I'm going to go emulate that now?
5:13 Or was it just like a cool thing to see to be like, yeah, I had no idea if people even
5:16 did such stuff?
5:19 I did not emulate it whatsoever.
5:21 It was so beyond me.
5:23 It wasn't even in my realm of thinking that I could do something like that as a 10 year
5:27 old.
5:28 It was just like, wow, look at, look at those guys good for them.
5:31 But never, never came back into my brain until quite a while later in my life.
5:37 Okay.
5:38 So we'll certainly get there.
5:39 So we started fun.
5:40 Now we need to start kind of, you know, get into the not so fun stuff.
5:43 So you actually detail this in your book, which is a fantastic book, I am weak.
5:47 I am strong guys that will be there in the show notes.
5:49 We're not going to be able to cover everything here on the podcast today.
5:51 So you can go to the show notes and pick up your own copy of the book there.
5:55 But as you age, and you can kind of give us to ages and age ranges and things like that.
6:00 But something was starting to go wrong with your health.
6:03 There was some confusion there at the very beginning.
6:05 And you know, here you are in your late thirties and all of a sudden you're getting some bad
6:09 news.
6:10 So let's talk about your late thirties, kind of how you were feeling and then kind of what
6:13 ended up happening with your health.
6:15 Yeah.
6:16 So out of nowhere, I had a seizure, never had a seizure before, didn't know what hit me.
6:21 But that got me into the doctor that got me into the neurologist to figure out what was
6:25 going on.
6:27 And I got a call on a Sunday afternoon from a neurosurgeon that I'd never met.
6:32 And he told me he said, Hey, I'm looking at your, your scan right here.
6:36 And it appears that you have a brain tumor, pretty significant in size is about the size
6:40 of a ping pong ball.
6:42 And man, when I heard that over the phone, that just, that took my, my breath away.
6:47 You know, I, again, I don't, I don't know how to react to that.
6:50 So all I knew to ask him was like, is it cancer?
6:55 And he said, I don't know yet.
6:59 And I asked him, am I going to need brain surgery?
7:03 And he said, yes, if possible, because this, this brain tumor is right in the center of
7:09 my brain, very hard to reach very high risk if I was going to try to go through with a
7:14 surgery.
7:15 So getting that news, it just, it shocks you who's a shocking afternoon.
7:22 And I went upstairs and I told my wife and we just kind of embraced and fell on the bed.
7:27 And it was like, okay, we have no choice but to face this.
7:31 So let's go.
7:32 Okay.
7:33 So I actually want to talk about the gap between finding out, telling your spouse embracing.
7:40 And when you got to the point to where you're just like, well, this is the hand that I was
7:43 dealt, I have to play it because I'm fairly pessimistic in my personality.
7:47 And I tended to dwell on things that are negative, not on things that are positive, things that
7:50 are positive.
7:51 I'm like, Oh, that's great.
7:52 And then I move on to the next thing.
7:53 But I've gone through that same scenario in my head having not experienced what you've experienced,
7:58 but I've tried to put myself there so that I could try to predecide how it would react.
8:02 And you know, the drill, Jay, you don't know how you're going to react until you're literally
8:06 in the middle of the situation.
8:07 So what was the time length between like, okay, this absolutely sucks.
8:11 Maybe you're in tears with your wife and all that, all the worst, worst possible things
8:16 that could scare a person are right there in front of you.
8:18 And then how long was that gap and kind of, you know, how long did it take you to get there?
8:22 What did you do to get there?
8:23 Take us through that.
8:24 Yeah.
8:25 So it was probably a year that went on before I actually had my first brain surgery.
8:31 I've had three now, but my first brain surgery took about a year because I had to fight insurance.
8:37 They didn't want to pay for it.
8:38 Of course.
8:39 And you know, surgery like that's over a million dollars.
8:42 And so it's not something that you can just say, I'll take care of it.
8:46 So anyway, I had to fight insurance.
8:48 And then I also had to find a surgeon that was capable of attempting this surgery because
8:54 of the placement of the tumor.
8:56 A lot of surgeons would call it inoperable, but I kept, I didn't give up.
9:02 And that's my personality of when life is out of control, I get moving, I get busy.
9:10 I start working and that can sound good, but it's also an attempt at control.
9:14 You know, I'm trying to control something I can't control, but it worked out well in
9:18 this situation because I just wouldn't give up on insurance or on surgeons.
9:23 And then finally, I got to a neurosurgeon up in San Francisco that he specialized in
9:29 surgery in this placement.
9:32 And so he was willing to attempt the surgery for me.
9:35 Okay.
9:36 So take me through this.
9:37 So one year of waiting, typically my experience with family members or loved ones that have
9:41 gotten cancer is they get a diagnosis and treatment or surgery and or surgery typically starts
9:46 almost immediately, depending upon the severity of what's happening.
9:49 So I mean, a year waiting around knowing that you essentially have a time bomb in the middle
9:55 of your head, like, like, how do you, how do you deal with that?
9:59 Like, even just from a practical health perspective, were there any deleterious things happening
10:04 because it was, you know, taking so long to get this thing going?
10:08 Oh, yeah.
10:09 Absolutely.
10:10 I mean, the, the main symptom that I was dealing with was seizure.
10:14 And so I was having, I don't know, maybe five, six seizures a day.
10:17 And that's pretty debilitating as far as your capacity to work and even decision making.
10:24 And you know, the interesting thing is I've had some people ask me about prayer.
10:29 And during that year, I couldn't pray much, you know, because it takes quite a bit of
10:33 mental focus to really pray.
10:37 But fortunately, I had a great faith community around me.
10:39 I had a lot of people praying on my, my behalf, and I had to kind of lean on that to find
10:44 the, the peace that can only come from, from Christ.
10:47 So when you say you had these people praying for you, I'm working through acts right now
10:50 and, you know, we're, we're going through different parts where like people were, we're
10:53 praying for Peter and praying for, for Paul after his conversion and stuff like that.
10:58 Were they praying instead of you?
11:00 Were they praying with you where it was kind of one of those things where it's like, you
11:04 know, you got, you got so down on the dumps, maybe you're so depressed that prayer wasn't
11:07 even on your mind.
11:08 Like, tell me a little bit more about that because, you know, some people, when things
11:12 go poorly, they run away from God.
11:14 That's kind of my MO because I'm so mad.
11:16 I'm going to go over here and fix it on my own and then I'll show you God kind of a
11:19 thing.
11:20 And so like prayer typically doesn't work into my equation.
11:22 What was it like for you?
11:24 Yeah.
11:25 So I, I was having difficulty praying, not because of depression, but because of the seizures,
11:31 because of the mental load of, of having seizures, it was hard to focus to pray.
11:37 And so people, yeah, we're praying on my behalf in place of me.
11:41 So my prayer life wasn't, wasn't full at that point, but I had other people lifting me
11:46 up.
11:47 Yeah.
11:48 And, and I don't know, I don't know for, for our time together, it might be helpful
11:53 to fast forward and, you know, that's a great thing about the book.
11:56 You have time to, to unfold things.
11:59 But after that first surgery, they were able to biopsy the tumor because at first, you
12:04 know, it's in a lot of cancer situations or tumor situations when you're figuring out
12:10 if it's benign or malignant, they take a biopsy.
12:13 But with brain tumors, there's a skull in the way.
12:17 So you can't just poke a needle in there to get some tissue.
12:20 So I went into the first surgery, not knowing if it was cancerous or not.
12:24 And then after that first surgery, that's when I discovered that it was cancerous and
12:28 I got the diagnosis with the prognosis.
12:32 And that's the moment where I really had to decide, am I going to turn to God or turn
12:40 away from him?
12:41 Because it's at that point where you can start to ask the questions, why me?
12:47 You can start placing blame and you can blame God for things like this.
12:51 And as a pastor, I've watched people in crisis.
12:54 That's the moment where they turn and they walk away.
12:58 I think I had already dealt with a lot of that when my dad passed away and there's a
13:02 lot of anger and a lot of blame.
13:04 But God was so gracious with me during that point so that now when I'm facing my own personal
13:09 crisis of my own personal health, I was able to turn to him pretty quickly, almost like
13:14 a reflex.
13:15 And I turned to him in prayer was my first connection point with him.
13:21 And so when you find out that it's cancer, what was the prognosis initially?
13:26 Yes.
13:27 So it was also terminal and chronic and they gave me six to 10 years, six to 10 years
13:35 and when was this?
13:37 I was 36.
13:39 Okay.
13:40 And so how old are you now?
13:42 I'm just wondering how long ago you got the prognosis.
13:45 Yeah, I'm 42.
13:47 Okay.
13:48 And so with that, let's just kind of go and speed up to your recovery and then we'll get
13:51 into the in-between and we'll spend a lot of time there.
13:54 So you said three surgeries, right?
13:56 So you've had three surgeries.
13:58 What is kind of your prognosis now?
14:00 Like what do the doctors feel about your situation, kind of where you're currently at?
14:04 Yeah, so now I'm in the middle of that prognosis span.
14:09 However, my last visit with my neuro oncologist, she was able to say because my last surgery
14:19 was so successful that I almost get to restart with that prognosis.
14:25 So that extends past quite a bit.
14:29 Okay.
14:30 Very good.
14:31 Well, that's certainly good news considering some of the news that a lot of people get.
14:34 And that those doctors have to deliver to those people.
14:37 But I want to turn now to a conversation that you had with your daughter.
14:40 So this is while you're in the middle of your fight, you know, you're receiving your treatment,
14:45 trying to take care of this issue.
14:47 And you tell your daughter that you are going to do an Ironman triathlon and do it for her.
14:54 So take us through just that initial part.
14:56 Well, first of all, not everyone knows exactly what an Ironman is.
14:59 So like describe exactly what you were telling your daughter that you were going to be doing
15:03 for her and in honor of her.
15:05 But just tell us like, where did you get the idea to do all of this?
15:09 Let's just start there.
15:10 All right.
15:11 So an Ironman is a triathlon swim bike run.
15:15 You swim two and a half miles and then you get out of the water, get right on a bike and
15:19 you do a 112 mile ride.
15:21 And then when you're done with that, you top it off with the marathon.
15:25 So it's 140.6 miles and it has to be done in under 17 hours.
15:32 So it's pretty intense.
15:33 It's a gold standard of an endurance race.
15:36 So how that came about where that idea came from was really that moment where I had to
15:43 choose, am I going to turn to God or am I going to turn away from him?
15:47 And I chose to turn to him and I prayed.
15:51 And it was just a very matter of fact, prayer of God, what are you doing?
15:57 This doesn't make sense because I just planted a new church that was thriving, doing really
16:02 well, have a young daughter.
16:04 Things are going well and it seems like he's working in my life and it just made no sense
16:09 to me that at this point in life, I would get hit hard with a terminal illness.
16:16 So I was confused.
16:17 So I asked him, I said, what are you doing?
16:21 So I sought the Lord, he heard me and he answered me.
16:25 And through the Holy Spirit, just like Jesus promised and described, the Holy Spirit reminds
16:30 us of the teachings of Jesus, the Holy Spirit spoke to me through scripture, it's like
16:35 my heart, my mind, my soul, we're all directed to 2 Corinthians 12, 9 and 10, where Paul
16:42 has this, there's different ideas of what's going on in Paul's life.
16:47 But for my purposes, I've seemed to bonded with the interpretation that he has some kind
16:52 of mysterious illness, a thorn in his side.
16:56 And he's prayed three times for it to be removed, three is the number of completion
16:59 that we find throughout the biblical text.
17:02 So he prayed until there was nothing left to pray about.
17:05 And God's response to his request that it be removed would simply, no.
17:11 But God went on to so kindly tell him, but my grace will be sufficient because my power
17:21 is perfected in weakness.
17:23 And then Paul concluded, well, then when I'm weak, then I'm strong.
17:29 And so as my heart, my soul, we're taking to the scripture, I concluded the exact same
17:32 thing.
17:33 Okay, what is God doing?
17:36 He's about to demonstrate his power through my weakness.
17:39 He's going to show me what it means that his grace can sustain me through something like
17:44 this.
17:45 And so I concluded, okay, well, then when I'm weak, then I'm strong.
17:51 And after I prayed that prayer, then I prayed the next prayer, which is so pivotal, okay,
17:56 how can I cooperate, how can I join you in what you're doing?
18:00 And you know, I'm pretty clear that the Lord spoke to me with what he was doing, how I
18:08 could join him.
18:09 I'd more call it a nudge or the Holy Spirit.
18:11 I felt this nudge from the Holy Spirit saying, Hey, you have an opportunity here.
18:15 You have an opportunity to show your daughter what resilient faith looks like.
18:20 And you have an opportunity to show her that the promises of God are real and reliable.
18:25 And I got this idea of what if I attempt something that I never thought I could do at my best
18:32 and I attempted at my worst and I don't know where, like I said, I hadn't really thought
18:37 about Ironman in, you know, 30 years.
18:42 And this idea popped in my head, what if what if I did Ironman something that I saw when
18:47 I was 10 years old and I thought there's no way these people are superhuman.
18:51 I could never do that.
18:53 What if I attempted that while I was going through cancer treatment?
18:58 So the idea was my daughter would be able to watch me get up and get out and train even
19:05 when I want to stay in bed so she can see that resilience and then she could also see
19:11 me cross the finish line and see me do something that would be impossible on my own probably
19:17 impossible if I was just at my best but definitely impossible when I'm at my worst.
19:24 And I thought, well, if I do this and if she's my motivation and I dedicate my race to her,
19:32 not only do I get to show her what resilient faith looks like, I also get to provide a
19:36 grand gesture of love to say, honey, this is for you.
19:41 And when all of those pieces came together in a very short amount of time, you know, this
19:44 is a prayer that lasted 30 seconds.
19:48 I made the decision.
19:49 I'm going to do this.
19:50 I ran it by my wife.
19:52 I ran it by a pastor that I greatly respect and then I told my daughter, I said her name
19:57 is Hero.
19:58 I said, Hero, I'm going to do an Ironman and I'm going to do it in your honor.
20:03 And from that point, there's no turning back.
20:05 Yeah, certainly.
20:06 If you tell her something like that, that's not like saying, Hey, we're going to go get
20:09 ice cream this afternoon like this.
20:10 This is something that you pretty much have to dedicate yourself to, but take me through
20:14 the process now of, okay, I've heard about people going couch to 5k.
20:18 I've even heard about people going couch to, you know, marathon.
20:22 Nobody does, you know, couch to Murph.
20:24 No one goes couch to Ironman triathlon.
20:26 This requires training and planning and build plans and diets and changes.
20:32 Tell me about that process, but also I remember when Stuart Scott was going through his cancer
20:39 fight, the, the former sports center anchor and I remember seeing him doing like MMA training
20:45 and MMA style workouts and I just in my head, I was like, wait a minute, I thought that when
20:49 you're going through like you post cancer surgery or radiation or chemo that you've got
20:54 to be basically in a bubble because like if someone sneezes within a half mile of you,
20:58 then you're probably going to die.
20:59 I just remember like thinking like, how's he able to do this?
21:01 So take me through and disabuse me of any of that ignorance of like what you're able to
21:06 do and capable of doing post cancer surgery, but while also undergoing radiation and chemo.
21:12 Yeah.
21:13 So I passed it by my, my doctors first and they said, yeah, this is good.
21:18 The more you can exercise during treatment, the better it strengthens your body.
21:22 You can re recover more.
21:24 Now, I don't know if they knew how intense training for Ironman would be and I don't
21:28 think I did either.
21:29 Yeah.
21:30 When I made this decision, we did not know how intense it was, but regardless, they said,
21:34 yeah, go for it.
21:37 And so coming out of surgery, they give you about a month to recover before your body's
21:41 strong enough to endure radiation and chemotherapy.
21:45 And so I rested during that recovery time for a month.
21:49 And then on day one of radiation and chemotherapy, I ran a mile.
21:55 And each day I would go in, I would run a little further and a little further.
22:00 And so pretty soon I was up to 10 miles and at 10 miles, I had a seizure.
22:06 And I thought, okay, grand experiment over, you know, because I, in the back of my head,
22:11 I, I know that the scripture is, is about spiritual things, not necessarily about physical
22:17 things, but I saw this as such a great metaphor to demonstrate the spiritual.
22:21 So I just thought, you know, I got to the 10 miles and I thought, well, this was silly.
22:25 This was foolishness.
22:27 My body can't do this.
22:29 So I went to my doctor and I said, Hey, like, what do you say?
22:32 And my doctor said, well, just back off a little bit.
22:36 So the next day I went and I ran 10 miles, just a little slower.
22:41 And my body was able to do it.
22:42 And then I just got pushing.
22:44 And I didn't know what I was doing.
22:46 I was just during that time, I was like, okay, I know to run a marathon, you people train
22:52 20 miles.
22:53 And so I'm going to see if I can work my way up to 20 miles, just adding a mile each day.
22:57 And my body was able to do it.
22:58 And then once I could do that, then I added swimming because I had no idea how to swim.
23:06 And that was difficult on my body and then cycling against so difficult on my body.
23:10 But I just kept adding a little more and a little more.
23:12 That was my game plan.
23:14 But it wasn't until I had to start doing what's called brick training, where you're not just
23:19 running, you're not just swimming, you're not just cycling.
23:22 You're doing those things together.
23:24 That's when I needed a plan and it was so crazy the way that God works.
23:31 One thing that I learned, and I talked about this in the book, is that whenever I pray
23:35 for help, God seems to respond by sending me someone.
23:41 And so I've learned when I need help and I just have one of those like urgent, like
23:45 God help, I open my eyes to see who He's sending to me at any particular point.
23:50 And so I got into the brick training, my body wasn't handling it, and I prayed for help.
23:56 And then within a couple of days, I got a call from this guy that I'd met one time in Idaho.
24:02 I'm out in California, Southern California.
24:04 A guy from Idaho calls me and says, "Hey, I was on a run today and I thought of you."
24:09 I was running with a woman who competes at the world championship level of Iron Man.
24:14 She's a breast cancer survivor and she's starting to coach people.
24:18 I told her about you and she wants to coach you.
24:20 And so now I found myself with a coach who competes at the top level of what I'm trying
24:25 to do and understands what it is to go through cancer treatment.
24:30 And she was the one that was able to craft my workouts.
24:34 She followed me by my sports watch that would also give her vitals of my body.
24:39 And she knew when I needed to back off and when I needed to push and she modified workouts
24:44 for me.
24:45 But if it wasn't for her giving me that training program and modifying it, one of her axioms
24:52 was always the hardest part of Iron Man is getting to the starting line healthy.
24:57 Because the training is so intense.
24:59 But she got me to the start line healthy.
25:01 Hey, guys, real quick, if you're anything like me, you are constantly on the lookout
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26:38 You know, I'm connected to a lot of people in the MMA community and that's the same thing.
26:42 But their thing is like you never get to the fight, you never get to fight night healthy.
26:46 So you just try to get there as healthy as possible.
26:48 And so I'm sure even for you, you certainly had to have had some setbacks.
26:52 It's impossible, seemingly to train for an Ironman at any age with any type of genetic
26:56 predisposition without some significant setbacks.
26:59 So take us through some of those setbacks and then also go ahead and just tell us, what's
27:03 the worst part?
27:04 Like, do you hate the biking more or the running more because it's always, you know, different
27:08 distances.
27:09 Some people are really good in the water.
27:10 They're like fish.
27:11 What was, what were the bad times like, but then also what's the crappiest part?
27:14 What did you hate the most?
27:16 Well, I think specifically for Ironman, the crappiest part's got to be the run because
27:20 it's at the end.
27:21 Yeah.
27:22 Yeah.
27:23 You know, so to just go do a, you know, 120 mile warm up before starting a marathon.
27:27 That's a brutal marathon, right?
27:29 Yeah.
27:30 Right.
27:31 That's got to be.
27:32 I enjoy running.
27:33 That's the only thing I'd done before.
27:34 You know, I wasn't an athlete.
27:35 I wasn't, I didn't play varsity sports or anything like that, even in high school.
27:40 But I would run occasionally.
27:43 And so I was most comfortable with running.
27:46 Swimming was the hardest to learn, obviously.
27:49 I could keep my head above water, but you know, the, the first time I went out for a swim,
27:54 I did a hundred meters and I was gassed.
27:57 I was so, so tired.
27:59 And I thought, how am I going to do 3,200 meters?
28:02 If I can't even do 100, and I thought there's, there's no way.
28:06 But again, I prayed and I said, God help.
28:09 And here comes a guy from my church.
28:11 He was a division one swimmer, swam with Michael Phelps and he knew what he was doing.
28:16 He got, he took off work early every day to meet me at the pool, teach me how to swim.
28:22 So that was brutal to start with.
28:24 But the cycling was the part that my body couldn't handle because one of the byproducts
28:32 of chemotherapy is muscle strains.
28:34 And so to be on a bike, you know, you're out for four hours training, doing 100 plus miles
28:40 and your, your stationary and your hamstrings just over and over are pumping the same motion.
28:46 And so I had some, some big muscle strains, which then because I'm on chemo, the recovery
28:53 from that was really difficult.
28:55 And the recovery was slow, which was scary because my race that I'd already signed up
28:59 for in Australia was getting closer and closer and I wasn't able to be out training.
29:05 And so I was freaking out, like, am I going to be ready for this thing?
29:09 And, and then I, it also freaked me out too in training to be dealing with muscle strains
29:14 because Ironman, like one of their favorite things to do is to show highlight reels of
29:19 elite athletes crawling across the finish line because they, they cramp up somewhere along
29:25 and then by sheer willpower, they just crawl across the finish line and I'm thinking my
29:30 body's not going to be able to handle it.
29:32 You know, I can, I can give myself the best nutrition and hydration, but with chemotherapy
29:37 in my, my system, I don't think I'm going to be able to make it.
29:40 But so it was a muscle, it was a huge mental strain during training to be experiencing
29:46 these strains and thinking, what's the point of continuing to train if I'm not even able
29:51 to go a hundred miles on a bike and I need to do 112 plus a marathon.
29:57 So it was, yeah, it was difficult.
30:00 I had sent that stir back during the race as well, but that was the training.
30:04 Well, so with the training, it's funny that you brought up Michael Phelps and all that.
30:08 So I remember after this would have been what the 2008 Olympics when Phelps won all his gold
30:12 medals, a gold medals or whatever, I was like, you know what, I'm, I'm motivated.
30:15 Let's go swim.
30:16 And I'm a good athlete.
30:17 And you know, I'm in good shape and all that.
30:18 I go to our pool at our university and I go from one end of the pool to the other.
30:23 And I'm like, this is the dumbest thing in the world.
30:25 No one should do this.
30:26 Like why do people do this to themselves?
30:28 And I kept trying and I kept going.
30:29 It's like, all right, I guess I'm just not going to be a swimmer and I kind of moved on,
30:33 but you obviously pushed through all of that.
30:35 You had some resilience to go through all that, but you mentioned you signed up for a race
30:38 in 2019 in Australia and that was postponed.
30:42 And then you signed up for a race in Santa Rosa in 2020 also postponed.
30:48 So tell me where you go from there, because I just got to imagine, I mean, again, I keep
30:52 thinking about this for whatever reason in an MMA context, because the training for both
30:56 is so brutal, but you get a fight, it's on the calendar, then the fighter pulls out and
31:00 then they push you to another day and you're like, okay, so let me hit the reset button.
31:04 Let me start my recovery, then I'll restart my training camp and then I'll go like that.
31:07 But for an iron man to have it postponed twice and not know when we're actually going to
31:12 do the damn thing, like, what was that like?
31:15 Yeah, it was like, you're talking about that resiliency of mind, I kept having these ideas
31:23 of like, that was such a stupid idea, like, of course, right, especially when you started
31:30 quitting it with that you're being led by God, because people get that wrong a lot.
31:36 Yeah.
31:37 And I've gotten it wrong in the past.
31:38 And so when you're trying to do something like this and you feel led by God, but then,
31:42 you know, you're getting injured, then races are getting canceled.
31:47 And you mentioned 2020, and we all know what happened in 2020, you know, here comes COVID
31:53 and the pandemic sweeps through and everything shuts down.
31:57 You mentioned in the beginning, your idea of somebody going through cancer having to be
32:02 in this bubble, well, that was the truth.
32:05 Now all of a sudden I'm at high, high risk because of my sickness, my illness.
32:12 And so now all my training partners are pulling out.
32:15 So now I'm solo, you know, they don't want to be around me.
32:18 And so I'm because I don't want to they don't want to be responsible for getting me sick.
32:23 And so I'm solo, I'm training all on my own, the help that I had wasn't there.
32:28 And then there's more more stress being put on my family.
32:33 And honestly, this was probably this was the hardest on a heart level and mentally.
32:39 So I'm doing this whole thing for my daughter, for my family.
32:42 But once 2020 hits and everything shuts down, my wife is a professor.
32:48 So now she's at home and she is lecturing from home.
32:52 And my daughter who would have been at school is now at home as well.
32:57 And instead of me being home pitching in, I'm out riding my bike.
33:00 I'm out training and just leaving it all on them.
33:04 And so I had to, I had to really think, all right, did I, did I get this wrong?
33:08 Because there's now so much stress being put on my family as a result of what I'm attempting
33:13 to do.
33:14 And then Ironman starts canceling races because Australia said, no, you can't hold a race
33:20 here.
33:21 And California said, no, you can't hold a race here.
33:25 And I got a call from Ironman at that point I was an Ironman sponsored athlete.
33:30 And so they called me and they said, Hey, we haven't made the announcement yet, but we're
33:36 going to cancel all of our races worldwide.
33:40 And they said one race that we've never canceled before is our world championships in Kona,
33:45 Hawaii.
33:46 But if you remember back then, Hawaii was really locked down.
33:48 Right.
33:49 And so there was no way Hawaii was going to allow them to hold their race.
33:53 And so I got this call, everything shutting down and I thought, okay, well, then that
33:57 answers that this obviously wasn't from the Lord.
34:01 It's time to back out.
34:02 What they said to me, they said, Hey, we want to, we want you to do the world championship.
34:11 I was like, well, I didn't qualify for that.
34:13 They said, yeah, yeah.
34:14 Honorary.
34:15 And I said, but that's canceled as well.
34:17 And they said, well, what we're going to do is we're going to have our first ever full
34:21 distance virtual race as like, how's that work and, and you know, all of us are competing
34:29 with sport watches on smartwatches and they said, well, you have an app it'll attach to
34:34 your Garmin and you'll plan your own 140 mile course.
34:41 And we'll track it via the app and the, the watch and you'll compete against everybody
34:45 that way.
34:47 And I remember thinking, I can't do that because I've never, I've never been to an Ironman
34:55 race.
34:56 And now I have to plan my own.
34:58 You know, I, I don't know what a transition zone looks like.
35:02 I don't know what an aid station is.
35:04 And now not only do I have to plan a route 140 mile route that, you know, that I can
35:09 do, but it's the other pieces permits, support for me having a paramedic available.
35:19 All of these, all of these things just seemed impossible.
35:22 And so I told them, I said, well, let me talk to my wife, which, you know, that's, that's
35:27 good man code for, I'm not going to do this.
35:30 You know, it just gives you an out.
35:33 Yeah.
35:34 So, so I thought because so much stress had been placed on my wife, I thought, yeah,
35:39 we'll have this conversation, but this, this isn't going to happen.
35:42 But when I talked to her, she said, I think you should do it and that really took me
35:49 by surprise.
35:50 She said, Jay, if you can plan your own course, we can put the finish line right in front
35:56 of our house.
35:58 She said, you know, hero watches you train because I had a running route, a genius running
36:03 training route.
36:04 It was only a three mile loop that I would just do over and over because I always had
36:08 a bathroom, you know, because I'd come by my house every three miles and so it was smart.
36:14 So my daughter would watch me pass by the house every three miles.
36:18 And she said, that's important to hero.
36:21 And now if she can watch you cross the finish line out in front of our house, that's gonna,
36:26 that's gonna submit that minute, that memory.
36:29 And she also said, you know, it was a cute idea to go out to, to Australia and make it
36:34 a trip for the whole family, but she said, your community is here and people will be able
36:40 to support you if you do it at home.
36:43 And when she said those two things, I thought, okay, let's go.
36:47 And so I called the Ironman back and said, yeah, count me in, we're gonna do this thing.
36:54 Stay for me, fortunately for me, at this point, there's a documentary crew that's following
36:59 me.
37:00 And so I've got a full crew with, you know, directors and producers and all of that stuff.
37:05 And so they put one of their producers on the race.
37:10 So there was a producer that handled all the permitting, all of those things.
37:14 So that that was a weight taken off of my shoulders, which was very, very fortunate.
37:18 Okay, very good.
37:19 So obviously everybody had to get really creative during 2020 because everything got really
37:24 stupid there for a little bit.
37:26 And so you're doing this process.
37:27 Luckily, you've got some people that are helping you.
37:29 Luckily, you got somebody helping you with the permitting, figuring out the track, figuring
37:33 out all the aid stations, all those types of things.
37:35 But I remember a buddy looking at me like I was crazy, because I told him that I train,
37:41 you know, powerlifting or all the training I do, I do that alone.
37:44 And I don't listen to music while I do it.
37:46 He's like, are you a serial killer?
37:47 Like, do I need to be concerned like you work out without anybody around?
37:50 Like, so there's, you know, you don't get that little ego boost because, you know, somebody
37:54 is on the other side of the gym, maybe looking at you, seeing what you're, what's your deadlift
37:57 in that day.
37:58 So the, the idea, Jay, of like doing this alone, like without any people, like, come on, man,
38:04 you can do it or smack any on the bottom on the way by it's a, you know, just that camaraderie
38:08 you get from doing any kind of race with other people, whether it's a tough mutter or an iron
38:13 man or anything like that, like that absolutely suck.
38:16 Or did it?
38:17 I just assuming that it did, but it sounds like it would be terrible.
38:21 Yes.
38:22 Yeah.
38:23 Like, like you're pointing out there's a certain amount of, when other athletes are there,
38:28 it's motivational.
38:29 It keeps you going.
38:31 The pure competition comes out of you out of you when you're competing against others.
38:35 And now I'm alone.
38:37 I'm solo and with all my doubts and anytime I'm going to be thinking, maybe I should just
38:43 quit.
38:44 Maybe I should just give up on this.
38:45 I'm on my own.
38:48 But what I also learned during the training, because during 2020, I was training alone.
38:52 So it's kind of like the Lord was preparing me for that.
38:56 And so I learned how to find some, some gratitude in the solitude where swimming, swimming was
39:06 the worst to learn, but then it became my favorite to do because I would meditate on
39:10 the Lord's prayer every time I would swim and I, I felt myself growing spiritually, even
39:16 while while I was in the trenches of training and then cycling as well.
39:23 When I, when I'd be out on a long ride by myself, I was some of the best time to process through
39:29 all of the emotion that came along with a terminal illness.
39:34 And I was able to, to, at that point through prayer, I was able to pray during that point.
39:40 Really make some headway into my own mental health as I was also boosting my physical health.
39:46 But then the run man, the run is just brutal and terrible.
39:51 And when you're doing that on your own, makes it even more difficult, absolutely.
39:56 So it's interesting to see how much mental training you went through, which guys, obviously
40:01 if any of you have ever done anything difficult physically, you know, there's a tremendous
40:05 mental component to it as well.
40:06 We always talk about cultivating spiritual, mental and physical resilience.
40:10 And it sounds like you were really sharpening all of those knives as you were going through
40:13 this training.
40:14 But let, let's just get to race day.
40:16 So it's race day.
40:17 You're trying to, you got to get this thing done in under 17 hours and just take us through
40:21 the race.
40:22 Where did you start?
40:23 When did you start?
40:24 Like, you know, what was race day like?
40:26 Yeah.
40:27 So four a.m.
40:28 The alarm clock goes off.
40:30 I put my, I put my feet on the ground and pray.
40:33 Were you able to sleep?
40:34 Jay.
40:35 Were you able to sleep the night before?
40:36 I can't imagine you got a good night's sleep.
40:38 There's no way.
40:39 No, I, I was able to.
40:41 I was.
40:42 Yeah.
40:43 Okay.
40:44 Through this whole thing.
40:45 There's, God has just given me such a piece and I slept well the night before my surgeries
40:51 slept well the night before my race.
40:54 So yeah, I get up at 4.30.
40:55 It's dark out.
40:57 I come downstairs.
40:58 I eat a poke bowl.
40:59 That was my, my morning nutrition routine.
41:02 So I had some raw fish and, and white rice and, and gotten a van and went to Newport Beach.
41:11 So Pacific Ocean, you have to do an open water swim.
41:14 And so I went down there and the producer had set up an opening ceremony, Ironman do,
41:20 they do an epic opening ceremony and a party afterwards.
41:23 And I was really bummed that I wouldn't be able to experience that.
41:27 But the producer put together an opening ceremony, a good friend of mine, a pastor was
41:31 flown in to do that opening ceremony.
41:34 There's probably about a hundred, 150 people that were there before the sun came up to
41:38 support me.
41:40 And after that opening ceremony, I went to the start line and everybody came around
41:45 and countdown three, two, one when they hit one.
41:48 My wife and daughter had an air horn and they hit the air horn.
41:52 And as that sounded, I pressed start on my watch and I charged down to the Pacific Ocean,
41:58 jumped in, freeze and cold, woke me right up and, and I started heading out for that
42:04 two and a half mile swim.
42:06 And there was this moment, there was this moment where I'm swimming alongside the pier
42:12 and all my friends had run over there and same with my wife and my daughter.
42:16 And as I'm swimming, my head comes up and I go to take a breath and I can see my daughter
42:21 and we lock eyes and we both knew it.
42:24 You know that, that moment when you have a connection with somebody with eye contact
42:28 and you both know.
42:29 Oh yeah.
42:30 Although there's people all over the place, it's just me and you.
42:33 So we could tell and she, she waved at me and I was at the perfect point in my stroke
42:38 where my hand was coming out of the water and I waved back at her and she started jumping
42:42 up and down.
42:43 Now, the night before the Lord gave me another scripture, Nehemiah eight, ten, might be ten
42:49 eight, it's been a while, anyway, the joy of the Lord is your strength.
42:54 And I went into that day thinking, all right, I am going to give gratitude for every moment
43:00 of this race and watch it transition into strength.
43:04 And so when my daughter waves at me and started jumping up and down, I just, I thank the Lord.
43:10 God, this is amazing that I get to do this for my daughter.
43:14 And I could feel myself just well up with strength in that moment.
43:17 And the more I gave thanks, the stronger I felt throughout the day.
43:21 So I got out of the water two and a half, two and a half miles in and I felt good.
43:26 I truly felt like it was a good warm up and I was ready to go.
43:30 I jumped on the bike and I head out and it's, you know, the sun is just starting to rise
43:35 at that point.
43:37 And I realized at that moment, people travel from all over the world to cycle Pacific Coast
43:45 Highway up the west coast of California.
43:47 And this is what I get to do and it's a perfect day.
43:50 I get to watch the sunrise.
43:52 I get to watch how the light reflects back off of the Pacific Ocean.
43:56 And it turned out to be a 74 degree day.
44:00 So as I'm writing, it's just perfect conditions and I'm loving it.
44:04 Some other really amazing moments on that, that bike that I detail in the book, but won't
44:09 get into it for the sake of time.
44:11 But when I got off of the bike, I, again, I felt really strong.
44:18 So now I'm, you know, let's see, 115 miles in and I put on my shoes and I start for the
44:26 run and I'm planning to run 10 minute miles, right, which, you know, that's not exceptionally
44:33 fast at all.
44:34 It's mild.
44:35 It's very mild.
44:36 But for a first time triathlete, it's respectable.
44:39 So 10 minute miles is my, my plan.
44:42 And the first mile I looked down at my watch and I'm doing eight minute miles.
44:48 And I think to myself, this is literally a marathon, not a sprint, slow down.
44:54 And so I, I back off my pace and at mild Sue, I, I checked my pace and I'm at eight and a
45:00 half minute miles and I, I had this really stupid thought.
45:05 I thought, you know, all right, I knew the Lord was going to teach me what his strength
45:10 through my weakness really looks like.
45:13 And I didn't expect this, but maybe he's, he's turning me into something that's superhuman
45:17 spirit fueled and I'm just going to go crush this time.
45:20 Maybe I'm going to do this with eight minute miles.
45:23 And right about that, that moment where I had that thought, it, it happened.
45:28 I knew somehow, some way I was going to have to battle my cancer treatment.
45:34 I didn't know how I was most, I was most prepared for some kind of cramping.
45:40 And the way that I was fighting against the cramping was through my nutrition and hydration.
45:45 What I didn't know was that because of the chemotherapy, my digestive system was just
45:52 trashed.
45:54 And so I had all of this food and water sitting in my stomach, not being absorbed through my
46:01 gut lining.
46:02 Now, when you're swimming, your stomach is stationary, when you're cycling, your stomach
46:07 is stationary.
46:08 But once you start running, all of a sudden your stomach's moving up and down and everything
46:13 that was inside of me wasn't going to stay inside of me anymore.
46:18 And from that point on for the next couple miles, I felt like I was running with a stomach
46:23 flu.
46:24 And I thought, well, if, if it wasn't bad enough, now it's even worse.
46:31 And I gave thanks, I gave thanks for something that I went through that was difficult before.
46:37 I gave thanks for this, this time that I climbed Mount Whitney with some friends.
46:42 So Mount Whitney, the, the largest mountain in the United States are contiguous, basically
46:48 not Mount Denali.
46:50 So anyway, all that to say, I got altitude sickness.
46:56 And on the way down, I was so sick, but I was able to get back down.
47:00 And I just thought, I've fought through this before, if I did it before, I can do it now.
47:04 So God, thanks for giving me that experience before, let it fuel me now and help me to
47:09 press on.
47:10 So I kept, I kept pressing on for a couple more miles.
47:12 But the problem was, I wasn't able to take anything in.
47:17 I wasn't able to take a sip of water, any other nutrition.
47:20 And I knew anybody, whether you're going through cancer treatment or not, a person's
47:26 body cannot run a marathon without a sip of water.
47:31 And I just knew I am going to cramp up.
47:33 At some point, I'm going to cramp up.
47:36 And I thought, if I'm 20 miles away from the finish line, I'm not going to be able to cross
47:43 the finish line, no matter how much willpower I have, I cannot crawl 20 miles and, and make
47:50 it to the finish line.
47:52 And so I just, I had to come to terms with the fact that everything that I'd done up
47:56 to this point, it was all for nothing, and I wasn't going to finish this race.
48:02 I had to come, I had to come and find peace with the fact that I wasn't going to finish
48:06 this race.
48:07 And so then it became very important to me that I was a good example for my daughter,
48:14 that I'd be able to look her in the eye and say with absolute authenticity, I gave it my
48:21 all to make it back home to you.
48:24 Because as a guy with terminal cancer, this has become a metaphor now, where I'm fighting
48:29 throughout the day to make it back home, just like now I have to fight every day to make
48:33 it home to my family.
48:35 And so I needed to know in my soul that even if I wasn't able to make it home that day
48:40 and cross the finish line, I needed to be able to look here on the eye and said, say,
48:45 honey, I gave it my all.
48:47 And so I started this new mantra in my head during that point where I just said, you have
48:52 nothing to prove, just an example to set.
48:55 You have nothing to prove, just an example to set.
48:58 Which was difficult because I knew there's 100 people waiting for me at home, they've
49:03 been waiting all day, they've been following me all day.
49:05 I've got a documentary crew that's following me to document all this and Ironman had sent
49:11 out their broadcast crew.
49:13 So the crew that's normally in Kona, they were out with me following me and they were
49:17 broadcasting me on their overall World Championship race.
49:20 And so it was difficult to say you have nothing to prove when you know you have that many
49:24 eyes on you.
49:27 But I was able to say it in my soul and mean it.
49:32 But it was, I mean, you can imagine to put that much into something and to realize I'm
49:37 not going to finish this race.
49:39 And so I prayed the same prayer that you would pray, that anybody would pray, that really
49:43 simple prayer of help, help.
49:47 And then God did what God had done the whole time, He sent me someone.
49:51 And so this is what happened.
49:53 About the time that I prayed help, my coach who had flown out from Idaho, who had been
49:58 monitoring me by my sport watch, noticed that my vitals were not well.
50:04 And she knew I was in trouble.
50:06 She tracked down through the GPS where I was and where my next aid station was.
50:11 And she met me there.
50:12 She met me at the aid station and she had brought her running shoes.
50:16 She started running alongside of me, asking me questions that I didn't know to ask myself.
50:22 I'm a rookie.
50:23 I don't know what I'm doing.
50:24 Yeah.
50:25 She's, she's world class.
50:26 And so she starts asking me these questions and she said, all right, I promised I wouldn't
50:31 want to introduce anything new into your nutrition regimen.
50:34 But I did bring this salt tablet, put it under your tongue.
50:37 Let's get the sodium into your blood.
50:39 We need to balance this out.
50:41 So put this, the salt tablet under my tongue and within a mile, I could feel a change.
50:49 All of a sudden I could feel what was left inside me start to absorb into my body and
50:54 my muscles to start to get the nutrients that they needed again.
50:58 And when I, when I felt that, I thought, I have a chance.
51:01 I have a chance.
51:02 I still have 20 miles to go, but this might actually happen.
51:07 And so I thanked God for sending me this woman again.
51:11 And I felt myself strengthen with that gratitude and that joy.
51:15 And I pressed on, some was starting to set.
51:19 And at that point, a police squad car pulled up behind me and turned on its spotlight and
51:25 started going behind me.
51:27 I'm in my community now.
51:28 I'm getting closer to home.
51:29 And so I'm in my home city and there's a police officer from my city that with a Scott
51:34 squad car that's following me and lighting the way.
51:38 And over the loudspeaker, they're saying to me, come on, you got this.
51:42 You got this.
51:43 We're with you.
51:44 You got this.
51:45 And then they started playing AC/DC for me over the loudspeaker with just me.
51:50 That'll help everybody.
51:51 That fuels you.
51:53 So then I look back and as I'm turning into my neighborhood, there's not just one squad
51:59 car.
52:00 There's five.
52:01 And it's like to have your community behind you like that is amazing.
52:07 And as I come into my neighborhood, I can see a couple streets over.
52:10 I can see my house or at least where my house is.
52:14 There's all these lights.
52:16 I can hear music and I can hear my friends laughing.
52:19 There's a party waiting for me in my front yard if I can just make it.
52:24 And one thing that you learn, never to say to endurance athlete is you're so close.
52:32 Because when you're a mile away, if you're just going to go run a mile, yeah, it's not
52:37 a long run.
52:38 But when you've done 139 miles and you still have a mile to go.
52:45 But because I could hear them, I knew I was close.
52:48 I was so close and it gave me that joy and that strength and I came down my last street
52:55 and I turned on my street.
52:57 When I turned on my street, a friend of mine who's a contractor had rebuilt the Ironman
53:04 finishing structure.
53:05 They have this really iconic finishing structure and they were going to ship it out, but it
53:10 was like $50,000 to ship it.
53:13 So they decided against that and something crazy.
53:15 So a buddy of mine replicated it, took up the entire street.
53:20 There's a red carpet, there's finishing shoot and on both sides, you know, got 100 friends
53:24 that are cheering me on and I get to run through this channel of support down a red
53:29 carpet.
53:30 And when I looked up at the finish line, my wife and daughter were holding the finishing
53:36 tape and they had a little sign and said there's no place like the finish line and my house
53:40 is to the right, all my friends, but once I saw them, everything blurred out.
53:45 It was just me and them and I floated.
53:49 I floated to them and after 14 hours, 140 miles, I did it.
53:54 I actually crossed the finish line.
53:56 I was reunited with my family and then I got to finish what I started.
54:02 Gave my wife a kiss and flowers and I got down on my knee and I looked at my daughter
54:06 here on I said, hero, if I can do it, you can do it because we serve the same God who's
54:13 the same yesterday, today and forever.
54:15 And he delights, he delights in demonstrating his strength through our weakness.
54:20 And I told her, I said, listen, honey, God is going to put dreams in your heart.
54:25 He's going to put a calling on your life.
54:26 Do not be surprised when your enemy knocks you down, but you hold on to the hope of Jesus.
54:33 In his strength, get back up, stay strong, press on, and you will experience for yourself,
54:39 honey, that anything is possible with God.
54:43 And that's why I did it.
54:45 All of it, all of it didn't count.
54:48 It was that moment that counted.
54:51 Everything else supported that moment, but it was the ability to say that to her and not
54:56 just to say it to her, but to show her that resilient faith, that resilient faith allows
55:04 the impossible to be made possible with God.
55:07 And I really appreciate you going into all that detail that I literally at different
55:11 points was like, I felt like I was there, like I felt like I saw the cops showing the spotlight
55:15 on you playing the music saying that you can do it getting you there.
55:18 I really appreciate you going into all that detail.
55:20 And the, you know, the subtitle of your book is building a resilient faith for a resilient
55:25 life.
55:26 You'll make this the last question of the day.
55:28 So you've, you've already set up this life where I think there's another quote from the
55:32 books that, you know, there's strength in the attempt.
55:34 And so you had kind of became okay with the fact that I'm going to at least attempt this,
55:38 but you didn't just attempt it.
55:40 You accomplished it.
55:41 You had a tremendous amount of support.
55:42 You had literally hundreds of people supporting you across, you know, the pathway from soup
55:46 to nuts to on this journey, you get across the finish line, your wife and daughter there,
55:51 you know, that's going to be the picture.
55:52 That's going to be the artwork for, for the show, just an absolutely fantastic, amazing
55:55 thing.
55:56 But talk to me just in general about living a resilient life, because Jay, I know you
56:01 know this in your work as a pastor, but just as just being a dude, you were surrounded
56:05 by people that have no resilience in their bodies or in their souls whatsoever.
56:10 That if anything gets difficult, they tap.
56:12 If anything gets difficult, they quit.
56:14 If it even seems like it might be difficult, they're not even going to try and attempt
56:18 it.
56:19 And we have this horrific problem, especially with our youth that, you know, there's a
56:23 lot of daughters out there, Jay, that don't have dads like you that are going through
56:26 cancer treatment, doing this crazy stuff and, you know, giving that message to your daughter
56:29 that, Hey, if I can do it, you can do it too.
56:32 And I just, I lament for our culture that we're in this place where resilience is seen
56:38 as a terrible thing and how it's somehow, you know, tied into toxic masculinity because
56:43 we live in a parallel universe where everything is completely stupid.
56:46 And so it's like, just talk to me a little bit about the importance of just resilience,
56:50 not just in the extreme scenarios of brain cancer and Ironman triathlines, triathlons,
56:55 but just the day to day of getting through life and getting to the finish line that
56:58 God has for us.
57:00 Yeah, you know, life is hard.
57:02 Yeah.
57:03 Life is hard.
57:04 There is no escaping life being hard.
57:06 And that's why I opened the book with that question.
57:08 Why me?
57:09 Because you also have to ask why not me because life is hard.
57:12 We're all going to go through it.
57:15 But what I've learned is the obstacles that are in front of us don't need to stop.
57:20 Stop us because the obstacles in front of us actually hold opportunity and the obstacles
57:26 in front of us, we may not have the strength to overcome them.
57:31 You know, there's a lot of, you know, slogans in the cancer world like, Oh, I kicked cancer's
57:37 ass or whatever.
57:38 And the truth is, no, like I do not.
57:41 My body is not strong enough to be a terminal disease, but my God is my God is and he loves
57:49 to display his strength through our weakness because then it is so obvious, so obviously
57:54 his strength, not ours.
57:56 And that's what glorifies God.
57:57 And so I have found that with every obstacle that's in our way, we have an opportunity
58:05 to love someone else and to bring glory to God.
58:08 And that creates a meaningful purpose filled life, the type of life I want to live because
58:14 at the end of it, who who cares how long you live, you're not really living and it's the
58:20 obstacles that give us the opportunities to live a meaningful life if we don't give up,
58:27 if we don't give up.
58:28 And part of it is giving up on hope.
58:30 And that's why I told my daughter.
58:32 I said, you know, life is going to knock you down, but hold on to the hope of Jesus.
58:36 And in his strength, get up and press on because once we let go of hope, once we think that
58:43 God is against us, not working all things for the good of those who love him, when we think
58:48 that he's against us, we let go of that hope we blame him, it's over.
58:52 We don't have enough strength.
58:53 But if we hold on to the hope and we have resilient faith, then now we have access, no
58:58 matter how weak we are, we feel we have access to a divine strength that will allow us to
59:05 overcome whatever obstacle is in our way and find amazing opportunities along the way
59:11 to love and glorify God.
59:13 Man, it's such, this has been such a refreshing interview for me because, man, I've talked
59:18 to so many people this year, Jay, that have walked through the valley of the shadow of
59:23 death.
59:24 They had something come up and it's just like, Oh my gosh, how are you going to get through
59:27 this?
59:29 And one of the ways that we can galvanize our own energy and our own resilience is by seeing
59:35 resilience and other people.
59:36 That's why it seems like it was going to suck so bad to go run that race by yourself because
59:40 that was just like an extra layer of suck on top of the other levels of suck that you
59:45 knew was already going to be there.
59:47 And so just an absolutely fantastic message.
59:49 I really, really appreciate you coming on today.
59:51 But that is all for me.
59:52 Is there anything else you want to get off your chest?
59:54 Yeah, you know, I just want to point out with the book, I am weak.
59:57 I'm strong.
59:58 It is story driven.
1:00:00 Like you said, you need to see examples of resilience to know that you can do it yourself,
1:00:05 but it's not a memoir.
1:00:06 It really is a field guide to resilience.
1:00:10 So as a pastor, I've always used story to teach and I use this driving story to teach
1:00:15 how to be resilient.
1:00:17 So yes, it's an example of resilience, but it also gets very, very practical.
1:00:22 And so if somebody is going through a hard time or they know somebody else that needs
1:00:26 a little extra kick of resilience, this will be helpful for them.
1:00:30 But also for anyone who has a large calling on their life, if they want to do big things
1:00:35 in this world, this world is going to knock you down.
1:00:38 There's an enemy that's going to stop you from doing good things.
1:00:40 And so it's good to know going into it, what you're about to face and that you can get
1:00:45 through it using these techniques.
1:00:48 And so the book, the book provides those things.
1:00:50 And I hope it'll bring a lot of hope and resilience into this world.
1:00:53 For sure.
1:00:54 Very good.
1:00:55 Jay Hewitt.
1:00:56 Thank you for coming on Don't the Life of Man's podcast.
1:00:57 Thanks so much, Kyle.
1:00:58 Appreciate you, bro.
1:00:59 All right, guys.
1:01:00 I hope you enjoyed my time with Jay Hewitt.
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