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229 – BOTCHING AFGHANISTAN | Michelle Black

August 20, 2021 17m 07s Full transcript available
229 – BOTCHING AFGHANISTAN | Michelle Black
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In this episode, Kyle Thompson speaks with Gold Star Widow Michelle Black about the devastating situation in Afghanistan and the emotional toll it takes on families like hers. They discuss the sacrifices made by military families and the grief that comes with seeing those sacrifices seemingly wasted.
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0:36 This is on Daunted Life, a man's podcast.
0:50 I'm your host Kyle Thompson.
0:52 Let's get into it.
0:53 All right, guys, this is the next episode in the botching Afghanistan series.
0:56 And this is with Michelle Black.
0:57 So Michelle Black was on episode 198 of this podcast.
1:00 We had a very, very emotional but awesome interview where we talked about her book
1:04 Sacrifice A Gold Star Widows Fight For The Truth.
1:06 So she lost her husband, Brian, not in Afghanistan,
1:09 but she lost him in kind of the Niger, Mali area in Africa.
1:13 And she has a unique perspective as all these guests have in the series,
1:16 because she is a Gold Star Widow, right?
1:18 This is a person who has had to live with that as she continues to try to raise her boys
1:24 and to kind of traverse through society and through what the future is going to look like.
1:29 And so I appreciated her being able to take some time to talk about this,
1:32 because again, for a lot of Gold Star families, this has really reopened some wounds.
1:36 And so again, I don't want to keep her from you any longer.
1:38 No fanfare.
1:39 Let's get into it.
1:40 Michelle, thank you for coming back on the show.
1:42 I know that the circumstances are a little bit crazy.
1:45 We're not going to be doing the same level of fanfare that we did with the last episode.
1:48 But I know that a lot of my listeners would love to hear your perspective on what's going on.
1:52 And we'll just kind of figure it out from where we start.
1:56 But I just wanted to just initially kick it off with getting your overall thoughts
2:00 as to what has happened in Afghanistan and what is currently happening on the ground there.
2:04 Well, first of all, I appreciate you having me on, Kyle.
2:10 My initial thoughts, I think I'm feeling what so many Americans are feeling,
2:17 which is just devastated seeing the images from yesterday.
2:23 It was very similar.
2:25 It was like reliving 9/11, honestly.
2:29 But almost worse, because even though it was not in our country, you felt so helpless.
2:43 And it comes after years of sacrificing so much for what we hoped would one day be
2:57 some freedom for the Afghan people.
3:03 I think that when you sacrifice spouses, you sacrifice
3:12 the fathers and mothers of your children and your sons and daughters,
3:17 you hope that it is to accomplish something.
3:21 You know, I say at the end of my book that, you know,
3:24 greater than the sacrifice.
3:26 So greater than all of these lives that we have sacrificed is the freedom that that sacrifice afforded.
3:34 And when you see things like what we saw yesterday,
3:42 it tears your heart out, not just for those people.
3:46 But it brings up that grief because that grief has no reason.
3:56 It really cuts deep.
4:00 Well, I mean, we'll just kind of launch into it because this is the question.
4:06 So we'll just kind of rip the band-aid off.
4:08 But obviously you're a gold star spouse.
4:09 You know, you lost your husband, Brian. Now he didn't die in Afghanistan,
4:12 but he did die serving this country and he was killed by Muslim fundamentalists.
4:17 And you know, it's, you have a unique perspective on this because you,
4:21 you don't just become a gold star widow once.
4:23 You are a gold star widow for the rest of your life.
4:26 And as we saw in your book, sacrifice, it's how you decide to use that calling,
4:30 because it becomes a calling whether you want it or not.
4:33 But you can wallow in it or you can overcome and you were certainly an overcomer.
4:37 But I guess what is your perspective as to what gold star families should be feeling today?
4:42 And I know everyone is unique and everyone has their own emotions
4:45 and they're going to work through this in their own ways.
4:47 But there are people that are everywhere from completely crippled,
4:51 sad to out of their minds angry because they lost a son or a daughter or a brother or a husband
4:59 or a wife. And there's, there's the only guy we have to tell us anything is Joe Biden getting
5:05 up there, reading words on a teleprompter that he didn't read, that he didn't write,
5:08 didn't read beforehand. And then he goes back on vacation.
5:11 And I guess he doesn't really care that much.
5:13 So, and I don't want to kind of get into the politics just yet.
5:15 But as a gold star widow, as a leader of a gold star family,
5:19 what would you say to other families that are in this position?
5:21 That's, you know, that's, that's so hard because the grief is so individual.
5:30 And I feel like I've gone through all of those emotions the last 24 hours,
5:34 even yesterday morning, you know, I was trying to write down my thoughts and rationalize everything.
5:39 And okay, you know, we can't stay in a 20 year war and let's, let's be, let's be practical.
5:45 But the truth is, you know, by the end of the day, I'm in tears and my heart is broken.
5:52 And then the next, you know, I wake up this morning and I'm enraged and all of it has to do with the
6:00 fact that, you know, we, you know, it's, it's so deep on so many levels.
6:12 You know, my husband worked alongside a partner force as well.
6:16 So there are so many different aspects to this.
6:19 It's not just that we left.
6:21 It's because that's, that's, that's not the issue to me.
6:26 You know, it makes sense that we can't stay in these 20 year, 30 year conflicts and keep
6:32 dragging them on that.
6:33 That's not the point.
6:34 It's that these sacrifice, these sacrifices afford freedom.
6:40 And, and when we see partner forces coming alongside,
6:46 we understand the concepts like no man left behind, right?
6:50 We, we never leave a brother behind or a sister behind on the, on the battlefield.
6:56 And I think about my husband partnering with the Nigerian partner force on the ground.
7:01 And he loved the Nigerian people just as everyone in the US military members working
7:08 in Afghanistan partnered with the Afghanis and learned to love them.
7:13 So when we see images where we are leaving them behind to just be massacred,
7:22 it's, it's, it's so hard to deal with because it's another level of grief.
7:28 Because it's not, now we're not just grieving the loss of our, you know,
7:34 I'm not just grieving the loss of my spouse if, say, Brian died in Afghanistan.
7:38 Now I'm thinking about all of the Afghani brothers that were working alongside him,
7:44 that he sacrificed, let's say, you know, he sacrificed to say one of his,
7:49 one of his Afghani brothers, and now that Afghani brother has been left behind to be massacred by
7:56 the Taliban. I mean, that to me would just tear me apart.
8:04 Every person who made it home when Brian was killed, every person from his team,
8:09 that to me brought home pieces of Brian. But if I were to then see all the members who,
8:17 you know, even if the new sharing partner force who survived being massacred,
8:21 that is just God, that, yeah, that just, that brings back all that grief.
8:28 So I don't know what to say to those families, except I am so sorry.
8:32 Yeah, I mean, I feel like there's too many things to be mad at, but there's also too many
8:39 things to be sad about all at the same time. And so, because there's a lot of blame to go around
8:43 namely with Joe Biden, because he is the commander in chief, so the buck has to stop somewhere.
8:47 Even though if you listen to his press conference, you know, earlier this week,
8:50 I'm not sure when we're going to be releasing this, but we are recording it on Tuesday the 17th.
8:55 But, you know, we're going to be learning a whole lot more things as things go. But things
8:59 are going to get better for these Afghan Afghani people as the days and weeks go on.
9:04 It's only going to get worse because you can't look at the Taliban like it's just another country
9:09 that disagrees with us politically. And we're going to go to war over some sort of a squabble.
9:13 These are people that have a fundamentally different view of humanity than we do.
9:17 And they're going to treat these people differently. And a great point was made in an earlier episode
9:22 where there are people that were born in Afghanistan after the Americans were there,
9:27 basically, you know, kicking the Taliban's butt and kind of moving moving through the country
9:31 and stabilizing it. So there are people that are in high school and in college in Afghanistan
9:35 that all of a sudden are not going to be able to go to school anymore. Like the young girls,
9:38 especially like their lives are going to be completely irrevocably changed. And so I guess
9:44 one thing to transition to another subject matter is no one's really talking about the generals.
9:49 And it's because it's seemingly the generals all gave Biden the advice to not do this. And he did
9:54 it anyway. But obviously, for those of you that have read your book sacrifice, which, you know,
9:58 that'll be in the show notes, you should definitely go pick up a copy. You know, there's a lot of
10:01 crap that goes on and coverups and mixups and moving around that the government does
10:07 all to save face, all to make sure that people can still ascend the ladder and get that next job
10:12 or that next promotion in a situation like this, knowing what you know about the ins and outs of
10:18 that process. Would you expect to be there to be some fallout? Would you expect there to be
10:23 some heads that are going to roll? Or is this going to be an extreme example of people playing
10:27 the cover up game? That's a hard one to call. I mean, from my personal experience, I hate to say
10:38 it, but I would expect a lot of cover up. I would hope that there would be some responsibility
10:46 held. But even in yesterday's press conference, it was so reminiscent of the press conference I
10:56 heard after the media brief, held by General Waldhauser following the incident in which my
11:03 husband was killed, where it started out with General Waldhauser stating basically the buck
11:11 stopped with him. And he made a lot of great points, but in the end, blame was shifted elsewhere.
11:19 And I think Biden did a great job initially of, hey, buck stops with me. This speech,
11:28 it was a great speech. There were a lot of good points, but in the end, there was also a lot of
11:34 blame passed off elsewhere. And if you're going to say the buck stops with you, you have to
11:41 actually accept full blame. You know, yeah, it's it's one of those things that I'm I'm curious to
11:51 watch as well. But another thing that you're you're uniquely suited to speak on is how the media will
11:57 react to certain situations because obviously in the situation that was surrounding Brian and his
12:01 team being killed, the media malfeasance in some of the things that were going on in the media was
12:06 was absurd. It was ridiculous. Again, you detail that very well in your book. But what do you think
12:10 the media is going to do? Because me personally, you know, early part of this week, I feel like
12:15 even the left wing media is is pounding Biden a little bit. There's very few people that are coming
12:20 out praising him for his his leadership abilities or his decision making capabilities. There are
12:26 people even on his side of the aisle that are like, yeah, Joe Biden's basically been an idiot about
12:30 foreign policy his entire career. Why would we expect this to be any different? This is just
12:34 going to be the bloodiest of all the mistakes that he's made. But from your perspective, knowing
12:37 what the media likes and what the stories that they want to run is, you know, what would you say
12:42 is what do you think is going to happen with the media? Do you feel like they're going to try to
12:45 shift the media to or shift the narrative to maybe help Joe Biden or maybe not?
12:49 You know, that's so hard to tell because I think I've been surprised this week pleasantly.
13:00 How honest the reporting has been because I and I think the media does listen to military leadership
13:12 and that was where the issue happened with the incident with my husband because the military
13:21 leadership in that incident were covering up for upper-level leaders. Here, the military leadership
13:31 I'm guessing are not covering up for Biden. They're just saying this was bad, but that could be because
13:41 some of them went along with it and they want to, you know, I mean, I don't know honestly. So this is
13:51 I've been cautiously optimistic that we're going to get the, you know, real good coverage on this,
14:01 very open and honest discussion. I mean, and I think too, when you have images coming out like
14:07 what we saw yesterday, nobody can can skew that. I mean, what we saw with our own eyes, you can't
14:14 just write that off or pretend it didn't happen. Yeah, I think right now we're in a position as
14:21 Americans to maybe take a little bit of a break from complaining about the things that we can
14:26 complain about because as Americans, we complain about some of the dumbest crap possible, but it's
14:30 part of the reason is because since, you know, 2001, right, since September 11, 2001, we haven't
14:37 really had to deal with any issues that were like right here in front of us. So we've been able to
14:41 make up all these, you know, different things to complain about. But seeing what the Afghan people
14:46 are going through right now should be a constant reminder to people of how lucky we are to be
14:50 Americans. Because another great point that was made on another show was that there are not people
14:55 clinging to airplanes on tarmac's in America trying to get out, right? That's not something
15:00 that happens. All these people that that hate this country and we're the worst and we're so
15:04 bigoted and we're so racist and we're so all these things, you're here and you want to be here and
15:08 you want to stay here, those people just want to get out. And I hope that there's some way that
15:12 we can pay off the debt that we have to those people that all they wanted was to be an American
15:17 someday. And so they helped us while they are over there as an interpreter, as an informant or
15:21 something like that. But you know, time will tell over the next few weeks, it's going to be a crazy
15:24 thing to watch. But as we wind to a close here, I know it was just kind of crazy to get you on here
15:29 last minute. We were glad you were able to make some time to do this. Is there any other message
15:32 that you would want to give to the American people or the Afghan people as we watch this?
15:37 Just, you know, honestly, pray for the Gold Star families and veterans, especially, you know,
15:46 the Vietnam veterans and the Afghan veterans, because it's like reliving so much of what
15:54 we've all already gone through. But more than that, pray for the Afghans.
16:04 Yeah. And for the Afghan people, you know, I think the American people on a whole
16:12 are not happy with how this transpired. We are on your side. And this was not a decision that
16:23 we were a part of. And we would not have supported. Not not this way.
16:29 All right, that's a good place to leave it. Michelle, thanks for coming back on.
16:34 Thank you for having me.
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Michelle Black
When you sacrifice spouses, you sacrifice the fathers and mothers of your children and your sons and daughters, you hope that it is to accomplish something.
Michelle Black
Pray for the Gold Star families and veterans, especially, you know, the Vietnam veterans and the Afghan veterans, because it's like reliving so much of what we've all already gone through.
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