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108 - The Long Road Back

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108 - The Long Road Back
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In this episode, I share my journey of physical recovery after a severe thumb injury and subsequent surgery. It's a raw look at the mental and spiritual hurdles I faced along the way, and how I learned to trust my body again while navigating the long road back to health.
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In this episode, Kyle discusses the difficulty we face when going down the long road of physical recovery. He dives into the tremendous mental and spiritual battles that occur as well. Let’s get into it…

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0:59 This is Undaunted Life of Man's Podcast. I'm your host Kyle Thompson. Let's get into it.
1:15 All right, guys. If you're listening to this on time, you realize we're getting close to the end of the year here.
1:20 All right. We are just awkwardly close to 2020 to the end of a decade.
1:24 And if you're listening to this on time, you realize there's only two other Thursdays left in this month, right?
1:30 So we release these podcasts every Thursday morning so you can have them for your commute, launch into the weekend.
1:36 But as we wrap up the year, obviously, we're going to do what we normally do.
1:39 I'm going to be giving you guys the best books that I read in 2019 and the best podcasts I've listened to in 2019.
1:47 So those are the next two episodes just to set you guys up.
1:50 This episode should probably be a little bit of a shorter one because those will be a little bit longer.
1:54 I would assume, but I think you guys will really, really enjoy those.
1:57 But one thing I would say to you is if there's a book that is just so overwhelmingly awesome
2:03 that you read this year, make sure you send it to me. I might read it in the last week or two before I put out my list.
2:10 Same thing with individual podcast episodes or actual podcasts. Share those things with me
2:15 because I want to make sure the things that you guys like that I'm listening to so I can have an understanding
2:19 of what it is you guys are attracted to, what it is that you guys are wanting in terms of content.
2:23 So hit me up. My email is info at undaunted.life. That's i-n-f-o at undaunted.life
2:29 or probably the easiest thing to do. Send me a message on Instagram. It's just at undaunted life
2:34 as the Instagram handles. So just send us a message there. So thanks a lot. Get ready for those
2:38 episodes. They're going to be awesome. But today's episode is called the long road back.
2:43 Okay. So long road back. This is going to be me talking about a lot of things kind of in a macro
2:48 sense in terms of what the road back is and what that looks like. But I want to specifically
2:53 talk about a physical recovery that I've been going through this year. Now just spoiler alert.
2:58 This is not probably the biggest physical recovery. It's definitely not the biggest physical
3:03 recovery that you've heard of. But again, whenever I experience things in my life and things personally
3:08 in relationships, whether it's physically, mentally, spiritually, whatever the situation
3:11 might be, I want to kind of bring those things to you because we can learn lessons from those
3:15 things and clean those things. But if you guys stick with us to the end, there's going to be
3:19 some very practical takeaways in terms of what you can look at and what you can do whenever you're
3:23 on your own road to recovery. But for those of you that don't know if maybe if you don't follow us
3:27 on Instagram or haven't heard me talk about it back in June of this year, I had one of the worst
3:32 injuries that I've ever had physically for all the sports I've played all the stupid things I've
3:36 done with my body. And I heard a very, very, very small part of my body. And that was my thumb. So
3:41 this was a jujitsu class on a Sunday afternoon in June. And so basically this is what goes down on
3:46 Sunday afternoons. It's usually an hour and a half long class right in the middle of the afternoon.
3:50 I'll do the afternoon class, I'll come home, I'll eat, I'll recover a little bit, and then I'll go
3:54 and do my Sunday night group. So you guys have heard me talk about the Sunday night crew you've
3:57 heard me talk about on the your foxhole podcast. So so that's my crew. So I normally do a two a day
4:02 on Sundays when it comes to jujitsu. So I'm done for the day, right? So typically on the
4:07 on the afternoon class at the forge in Edmunds one o'clock until two 30. And you know, I'm pretty
4:14 much done for the day. We we had done our teaching for the first hour or so. We had done our drilling.
4:18 And then for the last half hour, we did some rounds. And I'm grabbing my bag. I'm going to the locker
4:23 room. I'm changing. I'm getting out of there feeling good, right? Well, one of my good training
4:27 partners named Avon, he's like, Hey, call you got another round for me. And so it's like, yeah,
4:31 sure, no big deal. Set my bag down. And in the last 30 seconds of that round, I tore every single
4:38 tendon in my left thumb and tore my left palm muscle. Okay. Basically, what happened if you're
4:44 not very familiar with jujitsu, some of these terms aren't going to make sense. But I was trying to
4:47 do a Toriando pass. And so imagine you're standing up. So if you're me, your opponent's kind of laying
4:53 on their back or kind of balancing on their butt. And you're basically trying to get past their legs
4:58 because they're they're not in a bad position until you get past their legs, you know, it's kind of
5:01 passing the guard. And so what I did is I kind of grabbed their gi pants kind of on the insides of
5:07 their knees with each one of my hands. And then you kind of, once you have that grip, you can kind
5:11 of move their legs left or right and try to get past them. And so I grabbed with my left and my
5:16 right hand. But something happened. He's rigged and I zagged something random happened. And what
5:21 happened was is my left thumb got bent all the way back. And it was, I mean, just snap, right? I
5:27 mean, it was quick. And then it was over. I mean, I jump up like I had been bit by a snake and I ran
5:32 off the mat and I'm looking down on my thumb. And you know, it hurts like crazy. And I just didn't
5:36 know what was going on. But the weird thing was, is I looked down on my thumb, I expected it to be
5:41 broken. I expected it to be just hanging there or something like that. But you know, it looked
5:46 bind physically, like, you know, to the naked, I looked fine. But it was on fire. It absolutely
5:50 hurt. I couldn't really move it. It was shaken. Didn't really know what was going on. So I managed
5:55 to get changed. I go home, I told my wife, I'm like, yeah, I messed up my thumb. I don't know what's
5:59 happening. Lo and behold, after I had gone to a doctor got next race, gotten MRI MRI, MRI,
6:04 all the tendons and mainly the UCL tendon in the left thumb just boom, just kaboom pop gone.
6:10 And it was one of those injuries that it was not one of those injuries that that you could just,
6:14 you know, wait it out and you'll be fine. Excuse me. Some guys, you know, have hurt their UCLs and
6:19 maybe they sprained it or they partially torn it and they just maybe put it in a cast and it healed
6:24 itself. This was not one of those injuries. When I went to my sports doctor, it's like, yeah, we
6:28 based, we need to repair this. And so I went in for surgery in July. And so the thing is, is like,
6:34 I haven't really had any surgeries, right? And certainly not for sports injuries. I've had
6:38 my wisdom teeth taken out and stuff like that. This is the first time of all my injuries that
6:42 required a surgery. And what this surgery happened is, you know, you basically get cut on, they put
6:47 a pin in there, they put your hand in a cast, they take it out to check on everything, they put
6:51 it in another cast, blah, blah, blah. Basically, I was out of normal activities until the beginning
6:58 of October, right? So I got my cast off well before then, but there was some atrophy and, you know,
7:03 the thumb basically wasn't able to move all those different things. But that put me out from until
7:08 October. So that was basically from June to October, I wasn't in a normal routine with my
7:13 physicality and the things that I normally do working out, right? And then I had another surgery.
7:18 And I was, I was going to kind of keep this surgery vague. But to be honest with you, I think there's
7:22 a lot of guys that maybe have had something like this happen and they just ignore it. They don't
7:26 actually take care of it. And so I'm going to talk about it in vague detail sort of, but I'll be
7:32 specific in some other ways as well. And guys, sorry, I got a little bit of a cold. So if I cough
7:35 a little bit, I'm not going to edit it out. Don't kill me. But I actually had what's called a
7:39 varicosealectomy. Okay. So basically what the problem was, is I had a varicose vein inside my
7:47 testicles or inside my, my sack, I guess, sorry, if your kids are listening to this, I'm sorry,
7:52 I didn't mean to do all that. I don't mean to be crass. But basically, there was like a blood
7:56 flow problem in, in my nether region, right? And so what it was, what was happening is it was
8:01 causing some discomfort down there, right? Some discomfort in the sack region. You like how medical
8:07 this podcast has become. Anyway, that was causing some issues for me. And the most of which was
8:12 just discomfort, right? I mean, I would just have throbbing pain for no apparent reason. I hadn't
8:17 taken a shot down there in, in any sparring or any jiu-jitsu matches or anything like that.
8:22 But the thing was, is it's something that could go away on its own, or it could, you know, metastasize
8:27 into something a little bit worse later. And so in order to take care of that particular thing,
8:32 what they do is they make an incision a few inches below your belly button, they fish out your
8:36 stuff, right? I keep thinking there's kids listening to this. So if you're a kid, sorry,
8:41 earmuffs, they fish out your equipment, and they basically lop off the, the bad veins or whatever
8:47 the situation might be, stick everything back in, glue you up, stitch you up, and then you're,
8:51 you're on about your business, right? So sorry about that last like two minutes of the podcast.
8:54 It is what it is. But that surgery came right on the heels of being cleared for my thumb,
8:59 but I needed this surgery to be done so I could just be done with it, right? So I could just move
9:03 on. But this one put me out completely for four weeks, because after this surgery,
9:09 you could not work out at all. You could not stretch that region, the lower row of abdominal
9:15 muscles at all. And the thing about it is you don't understand how much you use your lower abdomen,
9:20 like abdomen until you, you can't use it. Your lower abdomen is just used in so many different
9:26 areas. You use it to talk, use it to yell, you use it when you sneeze. I swear, I sneezed once.
9:31 I'm, I'm pretty sure I blacked out and died for a second. And then I came back immediately. It was
9:36 just kind of one of those flash death kind of a things, but you know, incredibly painful,
9:40 hard recovery. You had to be really, really careful with the region had to keep everything
9:44 clean. It's just, it's kind of one of those, one of those deals that it was, it was tough. And the
9:48 toughest part of it was is I couldn't do anything. I couldn't even do yoga. You couldn't do stretching
9:53 of any kind. And that was different for me than, you know, the recovery I had on the left thumb,
9:57 because with the left thumb, I could still do things with my legs. I could still run. I could
10:00 still do ab workouts and stuff like that. But anyway, long story short was, as I was basically
10:06 completely out of my normal physical routine from June of this year until the beginning of November.
10:13 And for some of you guys, that's not going to sound like that big deal. You're like, man,
10:18 I take off six months every year, five months every year from working out. But for me, I haven't
10:23 taken more than, you know, a week and a half off from exercise, except for injury, since I was like
10:29 14 years old. I mean, I just consistently work out like I, I have to plan my weeks off. Usually
10:36 every six weeks, I'll take like an active rest week and just do stretching and maybe some,
10:42 some active recovery, walking or something like that. But I have to plan those things out because
10:46 otherwise I won't take any time off whatsoever until I get hurt, right? And so the thing is,
10:51 is that created an issue for me that starting in November of this year, so about six weeks ago,
10:58 I had to try to get back, right? And I want to talk a little bit about the concept of,
11:03 I guess, quote unquote, being back. There's different meanings for different people when
11:07 they talk about getting back. For some people, when they talk about getting back, they're like,
11:12 Oh, you know, I used to be in shape. So I'm going to get back in shape. So maybe they're thinking
11:17 back to a time in, in high school or college, whenever they were playing sports, and they had
11:20 to go to practice every day and the days, the days they didn't have practice, they had games or whatever.
11:25 And they're like, well, I'm 35 now, I'm going to get back in shape. So back is, is different for
11:30 everybody. And for some people back in shape means, I don't want to die when I have to walk across
11:35 the parking lot at the mall to get back to my car. And so I'm going to try to get back in shape
11:40 for other people back in shape is, yeah, I used to run, you know, ultra marathons, I need to get
11:44 back in that kind of shape. So there's there's a spectrum from all these types of people, right?
11:47 For me, getting back is getting to that point where I can trust my body and trust that I can do
11:54 things with it without having to worry about injury. Because if you've ever worried about
11:58 injuring yourself, you typically injure yourself, right? Maybe you're worried about your left ankle
12:02 and then you end up hurting your right wrist. So I guess just one of those deals, like when
12:05 you're worried about getting injured, you just seem to get injured more often. I don't that's
12:08 anecdotal. I don't have any evidence to support the thing that I just kind of threw out there.
12:12 But at the same time, it's it's a concept that's hard for a lot of people to think about because
12:17 most people don't even go down that road. To be honest, when it when it comes to recovery, right,
12:23 whether from an injury or maybe a sickness, and we'll talk more about that here a little bit.
12:26 But for a lot of people, the concept of back, there's a lot of different types of roads. So
12:31 there's there's short roads, there's medium link roads, there's long roads, there's dead end roads,
12:36 right? So for some people, it's short. Okay, grade one, sprainer, their ankle, they just got to take
12:41 it easy this week. We'll be back to normal next week. Medium is a decent sized injury. Maybe it's
12:47 something where you have to be really, really careful one if for two or three or four weeks,
12:50 something like that, but you can make your way back. Then you've got the longer ones, right?
12:54 And long could be, you know, two, three, four months, it could be years. I know people that have gotten
12:59 serious like Achilles, rupture to Achilles, which is like my number one fear of anything on the
13:05 planet. I hope I don't actually manifest a rupture to Achilles at some point in my future. Like that's,
13:09 that's the old man injury. That's the holy crap, you're going to be out for a really long time
13:13 injury. So I'm really, really scared of that one. But I know guys that have had to go through that,
13:16 and you know, they've never actually got back. And then there's also the dead end roads,
13:20 when it comes to the concept of being back, right? And there's some people that just never
13:25 will get back to where they were. There have been people that have been sick. Maybe they've had
13:28 cancer. Maybe they've gotten some sort of an injury where they've lost full use of a limb,
13:34 or they may even lost a limb entirely. And so that's a dead end road. They're never going to be
13:39 back to where they were. It's literally not physically possible. They can't sprout the lower half of
13:43 their right leg back. They're not going to grow that back, or they're not going to be able to get
13:47 that muscle back from this particular injury or a snake bite or a shark bite or something like that.
13:52 So it's different for everybody. But the thing about it is when you're on the road back from
13:56 recovery, and this is physical recovery, either from an injury or sickness, there's a lot of pitfalls,
14:01 pitfalls along the way, pitfalls along the way. So there's the obvious pitfall of the physical
14:07 hurdles, right? And so for me, the immediate physical hurdle when I got my cast off is my body was
14:13 uneven, right? If you're if you've done any type of weightlifting in your life, not necessarily,
14:18 you know, bodybuilding or something like that, you want to try to have your body be even. And so
14:24 it's even from left to right, but also top to bottom, like you don't want to be a spark plug,
14:28 you don't want to be one of those Jim bros that only only does bench press and bicep curls.
14:31 And you've got these little, you know, chicken legs, you don't want to be that person. You also
14:35 don't want to be the person that's got just ghetto booty. And then you've never done you can't do a
14:39 single pushup or something like that. But at the same time, left and right, you don't want your
14:43 right arm to be gigantic and your left arm to be like a normal person's arm. But the problem was
14:48 is my left side of my body had atrophied, right? Because I couldn't move the wrist, I couldn't move
14:54 the hand. So the hand, all the meat in your palm that you could like grab right now,
14:58 while you're listening to this, that was gone. All the musculature in the forearm and bicep was gone,
15:03 the deltoid was smaller. You know, the the trap was smaller. Just the whole left side was was
15:10 not even. And so that was a physical hurdle. You got to try to even yourself back out.
15:13 The other obvious physical hurdles, I just couldn't do normal stuff. I couldn't do the stuff that I
15:18 was used to. I couldn't do the stuff that I wanted to do with my body. You know, one of the things I
15:22 was doing during rehab, you know, when I had a cast is I refuse to get fat, I refuse to get that
15:27 out of shape, I made some extreme changes to my diet at that time to just kind of maintain
15:32 a certain weight or something like that. But I would like strap things to my cast, right? Because
15:36 I could do, you know, I could do squat, I could just basically push with my left hand against the
15:41 bar to do squat, I could do front squat, obviously, or anything like that. But I could run, I could
15:44 do all those things just fine. But for upper body stuff, obviously, I couldn't post with the hand,
15:49 I couldn't grab with the hand, there's nothing I could do. So I would take straps like those,
15:54 the straps that you can find at the gym or those bands, and I would strap it to my cast. And I would
15:59 pull with it to get a little bit of back or, or shoulder or bicep work, I would push with it to
16:05 get a little bit of chest and shoulder work as well. Yeah, I just did what I could. But again,
16:09 it wasn't the normal stuff that I could do. The rehab is just an obvious hurdle, right?
16:13 When you hurt something so small, like a toe or your foot or something on your hand, a finger,
16:18 a thumb, the rehab isn't really fun. It's not really sexy. It's not big muscle groups to see
16:23 small motions, these small things that you have to do, these small stretches. And it just doesn't
16:28 seem like that much fun, but you're still exhausted afterwards. So the obvious hurdle is physical,
16:32 that's kind of the first one. But then for a lot of guys, and certainly for me, there was the mental
16:36 hurdles, the mental hurdles that you had to get over when you're on this road to recovery. And again,
16:42 I will reiterate, I know guys that had to come back from cancer, like after having fought it for 24
16:47 months. So I'm not comparing the plight of a hurt thumb to that. So just just to kind of bring you
16:51 back up to speed. But the mental hurdle, again, the body not being even was a mental hurdle as well,
16:56 because you look in the mirror, and you're not used to what you're seeing in your reflection,
17:00 you're used to seeing a certain type of body, you're used to seeing things with, you know,
17:04 a lot more, you know, kind of a mirror image of the other side of your body, those types of things,
17:09 and you just didn't have that. So that was a little bit of a mental thing to kind of get over,
17:13 you know, even just looking at myself. The other part is that my brain was good, but my body wasn't.
17:18 So there's this concept that a lot of people talk about like in boxing and MMA or Muay Thai
17:24 or something like that. It's that a lot of the young fighters had these incredible physiques,
17:30 these incredibly athletic bodies that can basically do anything that you could ask someone to do
17:35 physically. But maybe they're not there mentally yet. Maybe they don't have enough fight experience,
17:41 maybe they don't have enough life experience, maybe they just don't have that dog in them,
17:44 whatever the situation might be. But then there's that that there's usually that area where your
17:50 physicality is still at a high enough level, but you've got the acumen, you've got the brain to go
17:55 along with that. That's why it's so dangerous for older athletes to use steroids when it comes to
18:01 fighting to use any type of performance enhancer when it comes to fighting. Because if you can get
18:05 your body, V-tor belt for it, if you can get your body to do the things that it needs to do as if
18:11 you were younger, but you've got all that experience and all of that technique in your brain,
18:16 you're an incredibly, incredibly dangerous person. And so for me, the brain was good,
18:21 but the body wasn't. I kind of felt like an old man. It's like, okay, I know what my body to do.
18:26 I know what I want my thumb to do. I know how I want my hand to react, but it just wasn't
18:29 happening for me. But the other thing, and I've talked about this obviously a lot, is during this
18:34 entire period from June until November, I couldn't go to jujitsu. Because obviously it would have been
18:40 really, really, really stupid. Because the type of casts that I had, it left my four fingers on my
18:45 left hand incredibly exposed to injury. There was no hand muscle that could have, you know, prevented
18:51 the fingers from being in the wrong position or any of those types of things. It would have been
18:55 incredibly, incredibly dangerous for me to go in there. And also you train with a cash, you can't
19:00 wash the cast. Like it's gross. It could have got an infection in one of my incisions. It just would
19:05 have been horrible for everybody involved and most certainly me. But the thing about jujitsu is
19:11 jujitsu is one of the things that I do to keep me sane, to keep me even, right? It's one of those
19:16 things that I've encouraged you guys to do for a myriad of reasons, which I won't go into all of
19:19 them again here. But one of the biggest things is that's one of the easiest ways that I've found
19:24 to cultivate mental resilience. Because it's not easy. I mean, it's easy because it's easy to
19:30 define and write it on a piece of paper and prescribe it to somebody. But it's really,
19:32 really hard to do. Getting in the room is really, really hard. Getting the warm up in and, you know,
19:37 getting to the end of practice and while taking care of your partner and taking care of yourself,
19:39 it's really, really difficult. But for me is when I can't lift weights, when I can't do jujitsu,
19:45 my mind starts going bonkers. There's way too much energy inside my soul and inside my gut. I
19:51 got to send it somewhere, right? And so those are a lot of mental hurdles, right? But then there
19:57 are also spiritual hurdles and opportunities, but but certainly hurdles. So I kind of was hearing
20:03 this thing in my head again, thumb injury, right? You know, I can rehab it and get back, but it was
20:07 like, you know, you'll probably never be the same. Hi, you know what, Kyle, you're just getting
20:13 all your 33 now. I mean, you're not spring chicken. I mean, you just can't expect your body to respond
20:18 the way that it used to, right? So that was kind of something that was weighing on me. And certainly
20:23 that was something that I don't think was coming from a very positive area. That was obviously
20:27 something coming from a very, very dark place. But then also, I kind of realized that I found a lot
20:33 of my identity inside of physical performance. And so for me, a lot of people know me if they know
20:40 me even just sort of well, they're like, Oh, you know, Kyle's in, Kyle's in really good shape. Or you
20:44 know, Kyle, you know, he diets and exercises, he takes care of himself. And you know, he's always
20:49 working out. You know, that was just part of my identity. But then for a long period of time there,
20:54 it couldn't be my identity. I couldn't work out the way that I was used to. I couldn't lift the
21:00 way that I used was used to. I couldn't be a part of the jujitsu community. So I kind of fell out,
21:04 of, you know, not a favor, but I kind of fell out of the minds of a lot of the people there,
21:08 just because I literally wasn't there, right? I literally went to a jujitsu class one night and
21:12 I just sat there just so I could be in the room just so I could be around people and watch them
21:16 work out like it was pathetic. But it's something that I did. But another spiritual hurdle that I had
21:21 and, you know, may have turned itself into an opportunity is I could feel God imploring me
21:27 this entire time to just slow down. Hey, Kyle, just my son to just slow down, just slow down.
21:34 You know, I'm trying to tell you something here. Now, that's not me saying that God is the reason
21:41 why I hurt my thumb, but I think he was able to use the hurting of my thumb to be able to communicate
21:46 some things to me. But I'll talk a little bit more of that here in a second when I get into
21:50 my takeaways. But in terms of where I'm at now, I'm backlifting. I'm under no restrictions when
21:55 it comes to lifting. You know, I've talked to all the specialists I need to and I'm doing all the
21:58 rehab that I need to. So I can deadlift, I can do pull ups, I can do bench press, I can do squat,
22:03 front squat, I can do all of those things. The wrist is still a little bit stiff, still has to be
22:07 stretched out. And basically all I'm at right now is I'm trying to get back to the weights
22:12 that I was pushing and pulling before all this happened, right? And I'm close, right? I'm getting
22:18 there. So, you know, a lot of this stuff is it's and I'm believably hard and it's just hard to
22:24 see kind of where I was at. And you spend months if not years trying to get to those areas where
22:28 you get that deadlift that you wanted in, you know, those pull ups to where you want them to be.
22:31 And it's just you just got to work your way back just kind of day by day. In terms of jujitsu,
22:36 I think I'm, I think I've taken three or four jujitsu classes so far since I've been back. And,
22:42 you know, I'm basically doing those things one handed. The risk of re-injury on the thumb right
22:46 now is really, really high. I'm pretty much have a clean bill of health on my lower abdomen. You
22:51 know, I shouldn't have any more any more issues there. And the thing about it is is, you know,
22:55 I'm going to train one handed and train with that brace and tape on there until I definitely
22:59 don't need it. But according to the specialist, I'm for the next six to eight months, I pretty much
23:04 need to be really, really careful with my thumb because the risk of re-injury is so high. The gas
23:09 tank, that's kind of one of those things is it's incredibly easy to get your gas tank up to snuff.
23:14 And it's that's one of the first things you lose when you stop working out, whereas you can kind of
23:18 maintain some strength for a long time. I feel like my gas tank is actually popped back pretty
23:23 nicely, which is nice. I was able to maintain doing a lot of cardio workouts while I was out for my
23:28 thumb. I wasn't able to do so whenever I had the lower abdomen stuff. And so that's just kind of how
23:33 how it goes. But that's kind of where I'm at now. And just I'll take a quick second, just say thanks
23:37 to all the guys that have reached out from this podcast or guys that just know me,
23:41 ask me how I'm doing, asking how the recovery is going. You know, it's again, it's not even a
23:46 cool injury, right? It's not like, Oh, I broke my femur trying to defend my wife's honor. Like,
23:50 it's like, Oh, I hurt my thumb whenever I was doing jiu-jitsu with my sweaty buddies. Like,
23:54 it's just different. It happens. And it just it's frustrating. It sucks. But you know, just kind of
23:58 is what it is. But there were four big takeaways that I had from this whole this whole scenario,
24:04 right? Because there were a lot of times where I felt like a punk where it's like, Oh, man,
24:07 this isn't that bad. Like, stop feeling bad for yourself. You'll be back. You'll be fine.
24:11 People take way more time off than this just because they're fat and lazy and stupid and
24:15 whatever you like, you'll be fine. But there were four big takeaways from this time. Now,
24:19 they've had some a little bit of time to reflect that I wanted to share with you because I think
24:22 it would help you guys. Okay, the first is this. Take advantage of the time to slow down.
24:28 Take advantage of it. Because I said earlier, I felt that God was, you know,
24:33 prompting me and imploring me to slow down. I've got some stuff to show you.
24:38 I got some things that I want to going to want to talk with you about that kind of thing. That's
24:44 the feel I got, right? But I just got to be real honest with you guys. I'm not going to play games
24:49 with you. I'm I just didn't do that. Because for me, my mind immediately went to okay.
24:58 Here are the things I can do physically. So let me try to do those things in the most extreme
25:05 manner possible. Let me go buy bands off the internet, strap it to my cast, which you're not
25:11 supposed to do so that I can continue working out. I did not take advantage of the whispers from
25:17 God to just slow down. Hey, I got something to show you. So again, I don't think there's
25:22 something punitive coming that God's going to be like, all right, next time we're breaking
25:26 both of your legs so that you'll listen, I don't necessarily expect that to come, you know,
25:30 knock on wood, sorry, hit the microphone too. But that's that's the idea is I just don't really
25:35 feel like that's happening. But I do feel like I missed out on opportunity. And the thing was,
25:39 it's not as if I came to that revelation after this, like before I recorded this podcast,
25:44 I knew that the whole time, the whole time I was trying to busy myself with whatever I could do
25:50 physically, which is not necessarily a bad thing. I was completely ignoring the promptings of God.
25:54 So take that as a cautionary tale that you shouldn't be dumb. Like I was during that scenario. And
26:00 now I got to kind of, you know, backtrack a little bit. The second takeaway and advice for y'all would
26:05 be just basically don't try to recover faster than your body tells you it can. I mean, the number of
26:11 guys that I've trained with or that I've been on teams with that the doctor said, Hey, you need to
26:16 not do this particular thing for four weeks and like two days later, they're back doing that thing
26:21 because some moron on YouTube or whatever, like, Oh, my doctor said did not do this, but then I
26:27 did it on my own because I'm such a smart, tough guy. Those those things are few and far between
26:32 guys. Those guys are lucky. They're not smart. They didn't like crack some sort of physical code.
26:37 And so that's my encouragement to you is just if your body's telling you that it needs a little
26:41 bit of time, just take that time, which goes into the next takeaway, which is listen to your body.
26:47 But sometimes tell it to shut up. I mean, listen to your body. I mean that.
26:54 But there are times when you think your body's communicating to you and it's just your weak brain.
26:58 Okay. So I say this a lot to different people, you know, some feedback that I got is sometimes,
27:04 you know, I may push people a little bit too hard that aren't physically out of place to go any
27:09 further. But this is this is what I say. So I had somebody to give me that feedback on some of the
27:14 workouts that I do on Sunday nights is hey, sometimes I feel like maybe you're pushing guys
27:17 that are physically just not capable of doing certain things to pushing them a little bit too far.
27:23 But the reality of that situation is completely different. Because if I'm looking at somebody
27:26 during the ab workout section and we're on our butts, but our feet feet are off the mat,
27:31 it's amazing. When I notice someone's feet hit the mat so that they can take a rest,
27:35 when I look at them and go, Hey, get your feet off the mat. Every single time they can take their
27:40 feet off the mat immediately. Wow. It's almost as if their mind was weak and their body was actually
27:47 fine. So that's what I'm kind of saying to people is most people have this self preservation technique
27:53 where they kind of dog it during workouts. They don't run as hard as they can. They leave a little
27:58 bit in the tank. And kind of my thing is when I take people through workouts is if they're given
28:02 me 75% effort, I'm trying to push them to 80 85 just for this workout. But then next time I expect
28:08 them to be at 80 85. And then I want to push them to 85 90. You know what I'm saying? And so sometimes
28:13 when you are recovering, whether from sickness or injury, your body's communicating to you. You
28:19 know, you could listen to yourself or whatever the situation might be. But sometimes you're
28:23 fooling yourself. You don't actually need to take another week off. You're just being lazy.
28:28 You just are thinking about, Oh my gosh, putting on my running shoes and hitting the payment like,
28:35 Oh, that sounds miserable. I think I'll watch another season of this particular show on Netflix,
28:40 right? We do that. We try to like bargain with ourselves and tell us it's okay when that's not
28:46 always the case. Okay, so I beat that dead horse moving on to the very last takeaway that I got
28:50 from this time. And guys, use things like this as practice for future hardships. Because again,
28:59 there's this really stupid idea with some Christians that because we're Christians,
29:03 our life should be easy. Again, I've talked about before, I had a buddy of mine years back
29:08 who lost his job. And then he started questioning whether or not God existed because he lost his job.
29:13 It's like, I don't know what Bible you're reading, but how many Christians, how many followers of
29:19 Christ, how many disciples had really easy lives? Like most of these people didn't lead the greatest
29:25 of lives. A lot of them died horrifically bad deaths, but they won in the end because their souls
29:31 were saved, right? But that didn't mean their lives were easy. And so the only thing that's
29:35 guaranteed for us is that life's probably going to get harder from where we're at right now.
29:40 And so for some of you guys, you're actually in the dumps right now. Maybe you're in the middle of
29:45 fighting off a serious illness or sickness or disease. Maybe you're in the middle of a horrific
29:51 injury, multiple body parts, car accident, you know, attacked by wolves. This is whatever the
29:56 situation may be. Maybe you're right in the thick of it. And guys, I'm so sorry to tell you this
30:01 it may not be the worst thing you ever have to go through. And it's probably not going to be the
30:04 worst thing you have to go through physically. And that physical element that is coming in the
30:09 future will affect you mentally and spiritually. And it'll affect you a lot if you allow it to.
30:13 But it's these situations, right? My little old thumb got hurt. All right, I had to have a
30:19 surgery on one of my nuts. Okay, great. It's those situations where you get to learn a little bit
30:24 about yourself. You get to learn about how easy it is for you to learn, how easy it is for you to
30:31 adapt, how easy it is for you to bounce back to respond to be tough, to be resilient.
30:36 Because guys, I don't have any, I don't have any misjudging about what the future holds for me.
30:44 I don't have great genetics, right? I don't have one of these families where, you know,
30:48 the youngest person to die, my family was 98 years old. I just don't have that. And a lot of
30:53 people in my family have died, you know, pretty painful deaths. Some of them have been self-inflicted
30:57 others. You know, that's just the way the cookie crumbled for them. And I figure that no matter
31:03 how much kale I eat, no matter how many miles I put on my feet, it, it's just going to, it's going
31:07 to happen. But when you can go back to these times, when you, when you had to have some grit,
31:14 when you had to recover, when you had to overcome, those are the times that you'll lean on.
31:18 That's why I tell people all the time, like people like Kyle, you know, why, when it's snowing
31:23 outside, are you working out with your shirt off? And, you know, why are you putting a bunch of
31:26 extra sweatshirts on to work out when it's like a hundred degrees outside? It's like, you want to,
31:30 you want to acclimate to those situations and you want to inoculate your body to those circumstances.
31:36 Well, the same thing can happen with your mind. If you can callus your mind and your spirit,
31:40 to be able to deal with those situations that you really never thought you could do cognitively
31:44 intellectually, you never thought you could get through those situations, but you had it in you
31:48 the whole time. So I know this is turning into a little bit of a, yeah, hoorah, do your things,
31:52 speech, but you know, it just kind of is what it is for you guys. Like, I just want to make sure
31:56 that you understand that whatever you're going through right now, even if it's a small physical
32:00 ailment all the way up into some major thing, it's probably going to get worse, but you'll be all right.
32:06 There is a light at the end of the tunnel. And guess what? If your road ends,
32:10 if Jesus is with you, if he's riding with you, right? If you're a disciple of his, you're fine,
32:18 you're fine. So guys, I really appreciate you listening to this podcast. I know it's a little
32:23 bit of a different subject matter didn't want to get into things in too much detail in other areas,
32:28 but this is something I thought might be good for you before we hit the end of the year. All right,
32:32 guys, before we let you go, we're going to do a quick resilience boost. As you know, by now,
32:34 we are immense ministry and our mission is cultivating mainly resilience. And specifically,
32:39 we do that by providing content like this podcast that for just spiritual, mental, and physical
32:43 toughness. So for you today, I got a little thing for you. So a lot of you guys are jocko
32:47 willing fans. And if you're not aware, jocko willing doesn't just write best-selling
32:51 leadership and business books. He also writes best-selling children's books. And so he's got his
32:55 way of the warrior kid, though he I think there's three books there. But I think it was last year,
33:01 he released a book called Mikey and the dragons. So Mikey and the dragons is a story that literally,
33:07 I think jocko described like it was in his head, like in the middle of the night, and he like shot
33:10 out of bed and like wrote this book in the middle of the night. And you know, try to get it published
33:14 through his normal publisher. And they said, no, it can't be done. And it led him to creating his
33:18 own publishing company. Anyway, just this week, he released an official basically movie, where it's
33:25 a it's him actually reading through the book with the illustrations from the book. And it's like,
33:30 I think it's like a let me say 15 minute long video. Yeah, it's 16 minute long video. But it's
33:34 it's awesome. And so for those of you with kids, this is a great book to get for them. That's a
33:39 great Christmas present idea for your kids boy or girl, especially if it's a boy. But even
33:44 hearing jocko read through this book is pretty awesome. So I just thought I'd share that with you.
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34:36 which is off their latest record entitled Phantom Anthem. The links to all of this are in the description.
34:41 I'm your host, Kyle Thompson. Remember, keep cultivating manly resilience. Keep forging spiritual,
34:48 mental and physical toughness. Keep seeking the lion of Judah.
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